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| Thu, 06-01-2006 - 11:27am |
Hi ALL,
I am freaking out right now. I don't have much time, but I am going to a end of year picnic with my son. All the girls are going to be there, and I am sooooooooooo nervous. I can barely type this letter. What am I so worried about? I know, it's because I feel like I don' t measure up, and that I don't fit in. They are all going to leave me out, and not make room for me on their blankets. The kids are going to leave my son out.
God, my heart is racing. I just took a xanax and I hope it helps. I wish someone would give me a hug and just tell me I'll be ok. I am loveable, right?
thanks.
JD

You matter to your friends & family, Jolie. You are loved & would be missed if you were gone. You have many positive attributes. Make a list of them. Then, refer to the list everytime the thoughts of unworthiness surface. The xanax will help. Please have a good time @ the picnic. Just be yourself. Be kind, attentive to others, put on your listening ears, all the things that good friends are made of. jan
A BIG HUG!
(((Jolie)))
Sheri Ann
I tried. I tried so hard to be myself, and to try to fit in. I was so nervous, and so accutly aware of the people around me. I am so hypersensitive to people's looks and moods. I just, for once, want to be the one everyone wants to be around. I know I am making more of this then I need to, however, I just felt so left out and lonely. I wish I had a better time, but these sort of events make me crazy.
I know I am a good person, and I know I try to damn hard. I am out of my mind with anxiety today, and I am so upset with myself for it. I am a grown woman! Who needs this, right? Who cares.
Ugg. Thank you for your response and your BIG hug. I really needed it.
Do you think I am ridiculous? I want to send you a picture of me to show you that I am a nice person, and I don't look as crazy as I sound!
love and hugs to you, JD
I'm a somewhat new poster, but i've read your posts in the past, and I think you sound like a great and caring person!
(((Jolie))) I don't need a picture to tell me how great you are! I can *see* your heart through your messages & know how caring & nice you are.
Sheri Ann
JD, you are totally loveable!! Hope you had a good time.
Lisa