panic!

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Registered: 05-29-2003
panic!
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Thu, 06-01-2006 - 11:27am

Hi ALL,

I am freaking out right now. I don't have much time, but I am going to a end of year picnic with my son. All the girls are going to be there, and I am sooooooooooo nervous. I can barely type this letter. What am I so worried about? I know, it's because I feel like I don' t measure up, and that I don't fit in. They are all going to leave me out, and not make room for me on their blankets. The kids are going to leave my son out.

God, my heart is racing. I just took a xanax and I hope it helps. I wish someone would give me a hug and just tell me I'll be ok. I am loveable, right?

thanks.

JD

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Registered: 03-11-2004
In reply to: jlvst
Thu, 06-01-2006 - 12:13pm

You matter to your friends & family, Jolie. You are loved & would be missed if you were gone. You have many positive attributes. Make a list of them. Then, refer to the list everytime the thoughts of unworthiness surface. The xanax will help. Please have a good time @ the picnic. Just be yourself. Be kind, attentive to others, put on your listening ears, all the things that good friends are made of. jan


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Registered: 03-22-2003
In reply to: jlvst
Thu, 06-01-2006 - 12:50pm

(((Jolie)))

Sheri Ann

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Registered: 05-29-2003
In reply to: jlvst
Thu, 06-01-2006 - 4:12pm

I tried. I tried so hard to be myself, and to try to fit in. I was so nervous, and so accutly aware of the people around me. I am so hypersensitive to people's looks and moods. I just, for once, want to be the one everyone wants to be around. I know I am making more of this then I need to, however, I just felt so left out and lonely. I wish I had a better time, but these sort of events make me crazy.

I know I am a good person, and I know I try to damn hard. I am out of my mind with anxiety today, and I am so upset with myself for it. I am a grown woman! Who needs this, right? Who cares.

Ugg. Thank you for your response and your BIG hug. I really needed it.

Do you think I am ridiculous? I want to send you a picture of me to show you that I am a nice person, and I don't look as crazy as I sound!

love and hugs to you, JD

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Registered: 11-10-2005
In reply to: jlvst
Thu, 06-01-2006 - 5:50pm

I'm a somewhat new poster, but i've read your posts in the past, and I think you sound like a great and caring person!

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Registered: 03-11-2004
In reply to: jlvst
Thu, 06-01-2006 - 8:44pm
We don't need a picture, Jolie. You are NOT ridiculous. Nor, has anything you have posted suggested that you are a bad person. We are convinced that your anxiety has spiraled
 

 


 



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Registered: 03-22-2003
In reply to: jlvst
Thu, 06-01-2006 - 10:20pm

(((Jolie))) I don't need a picture to tell me how great you are! I can *see* your heart through your messages & know how caring & nice you are.

Sheri Ann

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Registered: 07-13-2003
In reply to: jlvst
Fri, 06-02-2006 - 8:25am

JD, you are totally loveable!! Hope you had a good time.

Lisa

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