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severe fear and anxiety
| Sat, 06-03-2006 - 1:29pm |
Hello. I am new to the boards.. I have been suffering from anxiety and panic disorder for close to 10 years now. I am 34. I am on medication and it has worked wonders in certain areas however, I have a phobia when it comes to going to the doctor. I have always had this constant fear that they are going to tell me I am dying of something.. The "C" word freaks me out ( cancer) however, I am a whack job and smoke cigg's so to say I freak about my health and then in turn say I am a smoker sounds crazy.. For the longest time, I stopped going on line reading stuff about medical conditions and have thrown out all of my medical books however recently I have been going through a difficult time with a health concern that I have and I am scared to death to go to the doctor.. Its eating me a live and it is destroying my everyday life.. My friends tell me well if there is anything wrong with you wouldnt you want to go now then later.. I am so scared I say to myself I just dont want to know and everyday pray my symtoms will just go away!! I just dont know what to do.. Do I share this with my shrink? Has anyone out there ever experienced anything like this B4?? I feel like I am going crazy. I have two kids and every time I look at them I think Oh my God if something is wrong with me how would I tell them? and if I die how would they cope?? God just let me raise my kids then I dont care what happens to me let me just be around until they are 18.. I have made approx. 3 doctors appointments since January and the appointments have turned into NO SHOWS!! Ill try to get the courage to just go and then on the day of the appointment, Ill have an excuse..I am currently on Wellbuterin and Xanax as needed however I dont take it in the day time because I get way to tired and feel like I cant function. I am happy with the Wellbuterin because it had rsolved my depression issues.. Years prior to this I have tried Paxil, Zoloft and I got sick and for a short time Prozac however I suffered sexual side effects with it.. Sorry for going on and on. I just thought let me try this and see if anyone can relate to this.. Thanks Kriss

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I can remember, many years ago, having the same fears.
Sheri Ann
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