2nd day at IOP, feeling more anxious
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2nd day at IOP, feeling more anxious
| Tue, 06-13-2006 - 9:03pm |
well, today they had me write out all my fears/situations/thoguhts that cause me anxiety, and my sheet looked like this...

(((Heather))) I had no idea that you felt so bad at times.
Sheri Ann
You will feel bad until you get better---- this is all part of
the process. WHen you leave try to do some FUN or RELAXING THINGS!!!
I know how you feel like it will never end BUT I PROMISE IT WILL!!!
You made it through the anxiety before and just think if you fight
through this you will feel much better! GOD BLESS you and keep you strong!!
I am praying for you!! DIG down deep inside and find that strong Heather!
Let us know how you do today! HUGS!! Judy
Hi Heather -
Geez that sounds like a misjustice but a big part of me thinks that they maybe trying to spark something in you. I've had similar conversations with my doctors and walked away incredibly frustrated. Thinking "they don't care". But in a roundabout way they do. I think the big question for you isn't really about all of the things that make you scared, panic stricken and depressed. These are all the behaviors we take on because the bigger issue(s) we have not addressed. It's a way to protect ourselves. Our body shuts us down because our brains have gone into serious overdrive. Our heart, body and mind have been so disconnected that we revert inwards and our outcome is not what we want, but it's the only thing we know how to do, right now.
Remember it's right now. You will get better - there is no doubt. Everything right now is going to be utterly scary and frustrating and not to forget to mention the overwhelming feeling of trapped. Totally scary.
When we're in the crux of it all - as the cliche goes - we can't see the forest for all of the trees. Combine our confusion with the pills and well we have a real menu of confusion. Please don't think that I'm trying to minimize your emotions. I can relate - I know how huge they are for you. Trust yourself though. Accept your emotions as they are and look deeper to what may be the issues for you to feel this way.
For some reason this has happened to us. I do feel lucky (sounds weird I know) that having a nervous breakdown has happened to me. It's made me stand up and account for my life. We get one shot at this deal and I don't want years of making the same mistakes and crucifying myself. I don't want to continue to be miserable. Being forced to look at my life is really scary. But there are many people out there who may be ignoring the signs in their lives to lead a mentally healthier life. We've been chosen to take a look.
I am new to these message boards and hope that, as I have already been given such kind and inspirational words, that I can do the same. My intent will always be to help and with caringness. Be proud of you and your accomplishments. Own them and take refuge in them when everything else seems so uncertain. You do have the strength to work through this.
---Tanya