crying in today's session

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crying in today's session
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Thu, 06-22-2006 - 9:45am

Great--I can tell already that I'll probably start crying in today's session, which I hate. I almost never cry to begin with, and I really really do not like crying in front of someone. This has been a horrendously stressful week (and tomorrow I have a job interview for a job that I really NEED since my present job is the source for much of my unhappiness--talk about pressure!).


--Over the weekend, my cat was diagnosed with asthma and prescribed twice daily treatments with an inhaler. Ever tried to give an uncooperative cat a treatment that involves covering his nose and mouth with a mask?


--I went out on what I thought was a nice first date. I e-mailed the man to tell him thank you for dinner, had a nice time, would like to see him again. Have not heard back.


--The work situation continues to deteriorate. Every time I think it can't get worse here, it does. Yesterday we found out in a staff meeting that the resident queen WITCH has been promoted. Why is it that it's always someone who is mean and nasty gets promoted?


--And while I feel very good about the prospects about the job interview tomorrow, I honestly don't know how I'll handle it if I don't get this job. This job I have now is killing me. I have to get out.


Laura

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Thu, 06-22-2006 - 10:30am

(((Laura)))

Sheri Ann

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Thu, 06-22-2006 - 12:02pm
Hi, Laura! You have lots of things to cry about. Tears cleanse & help us heal. Your *T* will understand & that's what she's there for. I hope that things will look more positive for you. I know that many times when I feel like this, it's always much worse in my imagination, than in reality. Good luck with the interview. Let us know what happens. (((hugs))) jan




 

 


 



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Thu, 06-22-2006 - 1:20pm

Back from the session. I did not cry. Sure, I felt like I was tossed from a moving bus, but I did not cry. I told her everything that had happened this week, but we focused mostly on the date that didn't work out. I'm mostly mad at myself for being disappointed it didn't work out. Not because I think it was all my fault, but because I usually try to steel myself from disappointment and so when I do feel disappointment, I'm ticked that I feel that way. I know there are lots of times when dating doesn't work out. I know this. I had no expectations that he would be THE ONE, and still I am disappointed that he hasn't contacted me again for another date or even to say, "Hey, you're not my type. But thanks anyway." We talked about how I absolutely hate it when my friends try to cheer me up and make me feel better.


So it was a good session (time went by fast). But I still feel very battered and beaten up. And that worries me because I absolutely have to be in top form tomorrow for my job interview. I have to nail this interview. You know, I didn't even tell her about the interview. Nor had I told her about the upcoming date. I prefer to wait until it's all over with. I hope I'll be able to walk in there in a few weeks and say "Guess what? I have a new job!" and see the surprise on her face.


Laura

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Registered: 03-22-2003
Thu, 06-22-2006 - 9:21pm

I have a feeling that when you wake up tomorrow, you will have an adrenaline rush & nail that job interview :)

Sheri Ann