How can I cope with this.......
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How can I cope with this.......
| Mon, 07-03-2006 - 5:55pm |
I usually just read all of your posts. I get support from just reading about it. I have GAD and I have been in counseling for years on and off. I am in counseling now but I do not have another appointment for a month. I keep having the same anxiety over and over again. This has been hapening for years. When ever I feel the anxiety comming on I think about the same thing. I had a bad relationship with a controlling friend and when we worked together (a job) some things happened. She took money and gave items away. She encouraged me to do the same. Sometimes I gave into the peer presure. I have not worked there in years but I still feel guilt and anxiety about the what I have done. It is on such a small scale less than $200. But I feel like I am going to be torchured for the rest of my life because of it. On my last day I even put my own money in the register, thinking this would clear my guilt. It did not help. My guilt is uncontrolable. I broke off the frienship months ago (7 months) and I still feel horrible. I even feel like I could be arrested even though that would never happen. I have unrealistic fears. I am a good person but I always feel like I am doing something wrong. I worry about NOTHING all of the time. Yesterday I used a coupon at the grocery store and worried about it after for a LONG time. I feel that I cannnot do anything or say anything without feeling guilty or bad. Like I am always going to get in trouble with someone for something that I have done. Couseling helps but is this going to go away?

Hi & welcome!
Sheri Ann
I know exactly where you're coming from. When my anxiety strikes, guilt feelings from years ago crop up. All I can tell you is try putting your feelings on paper, then tear it up & throw it away. Or, pretend that you are putting your guilt out with the garbage. Waste management picks our garbage up on Friday morning. I always have a small pile of guilt, old wrongs, hurts, etc. I tell myself that after it is gone, I will start afresh.
You are a good person. Continue to remind yourself of that & start a list of all your good points. Refer to it whenever you feel down. Have you considered spiritual counseling? Some ppl feel a Higher Power helps them in such situations. Good luck to you. Post anytime. We are glad you dropped in. (((hugs))) jan