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| Wed, 07-12-2006 - 10:33am |
does anyone else experience this? I have feelings of "unreality" where nothing quite feels solid or real.. and then, when looking at people i KNOW AND LOVE... all of a sudden.. its like im looking at a familiar stranger, but i know them! its scaring me. its been happening with my boyfriend, and im trying to tell myself.. this is the man you love. we have been together for two years. you KNOW him . quit being scared. yesterday, the same thing happened with my MOM.. I know who they are, I know who i am, but it feels very insecure. the same thing happened on july 4th with my brother as well. i really was looking at him and was thinking to myself.. man, hes gotten older! he has gray hair! and then that feeling hit me.. am i just losing it? it makes me panic.. feeling like i need to hide away because no one feels close right now.

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You hit the nail on the head when you said "It questions everything you know and trust about EVERYTHING." That is a great way to describe why it scares us so bad. Nothing is more scary than feeling like you do not know your own self. Now that freaks me out. Feeling like those around you are not real is scary too. I have experienced both and would prefer to never experience either one again!
Kim
Wow! What a relief it is to find this thread! I can relate to everyone 100%. I have been suffering from anxiety my whole life and started having panic attacks when I was about 16.
I am now 22.
I am so terrified that I am going to become schizophrenic. It is my biggest fear. I have a hard time not concentrating on these feelings.
It feels good to know I am not alone in this terrible struggle!
FWIW, schizophrenics rarely are with reality. They would not be aware that they were losing it. So, you can rest assured that you are on top of things. Sending you a hug for that very scary thought. Please consider joining us in chat tonight. We care & want to support you in coping with anxiety. GL&GBU! jan
I totally know what you mean. Becoming schizophrenic is a big fear of mine too. I will sometimes analyze myself to death to see if I might be hearing something that is not there or I will try to make myself think that I have more than one personality just because I am logical sometimes but other times my emotional side takes over (anxious part of me). What Jan said and a few others have said really helped - that if we were schizophrenic, we would not be sitting here questioning ourselves and we would not be able to hear that logic side that reminds us that we are ok at times.
Kim
Same here! Getting shocked a lot. Always happens in winter. Not sure if you live somewhere cold but it happens to me every time it gets cold. I am in Ohio and it is COLD. It something to do with the air being dry I once read. Defnitely can tell the cold brings it on.
Kim
Ya, it is in the teens here right now. My company is based out of Vienna VA though so I talk to some co-workers in VA and they say it does get cold there.
Yesterday I did really well. Got past some things that were bugging me. Today I am not quite as good, but have been worse. I visited my cousin last night who told me he just got over stomach flu and then his 2 kids got it and they were pretty much over it too but now I am being paranoid that I am going to get it. I am not afraid of the flu itself, but I have a bad phobia of vomiting so now I am feeling anxious. I am trying to get past it. It is coming and going. When I first got anxiety a couple years ago, I was sick to my stomach every day for 2-3 months. It was awful. Now I think I have made a bad connection between nausea and anxiety.
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