icky feelings

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Registered: 07-10-2006
icky feelings
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Wed, 07-12-2006 - 10:33am
does anyone else experience this? I have feelings of "unreality" where nothing quite feels solid or real.. and then, when looking at people i KNOW AND LOVE... all of a sudden.. its like im looking at a familiar stranger, but i know them! its scaring me. its been happening with my boyfriend, and im trying to tell myself.. this is the man you love. we have been together for two years. you KNOW him . quit being scared. yesterday, the same thing happened with my MOM.. I know who they are, I know who i am, but it feels very insecure. the same thing happened on july 4th with my brother as well. i really was looking at him and was thinking to myself.. man, hes gotten older! he has gray hair! and then that feeling hit me.. am i just losing it? it makes me panic.. feeling like i need to hide away because no one feels close right now.

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Sat, 02-10-2007 - 4:03pm

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Sun, 02-11-2007 - 1:46am

OK..I just lost my whole post..LOL...I'll try again-)))


This is too weird...just this week I started fearing.."What if I have some major mental illness..like schizophrenia."

        
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Registered: 05-24-2003
Sun, 02-11-2007 - 2:14am

hi
new here. cough cough-I have schizophrenia,and I can tell when stuff starts to go wrong. However-I am 41 years old and stable on the medz called clozaril.
Usually the start of schizophrenia is the hardest. You usually will only notice those around you that have never improved-so they are out of touch with reality. I have aquaintances with college degrees that have schizophrenia

I used to think that my fears were all part of the schizophrenia but am learning now its actually anxiety and panic attacks.

Honestly-sometimes I would prefer a hallucination over the raw fear of a panic attack

hang in there everyone!

Annie

 

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Sun, 02-11-2007 - 7:54am
The last part of your post is totally what I think too - it is ultimately the fear of losing control. That is what drives it all for me I think. I, too, have done what you did when someone else is talking about their illness. I will start thinking OMG, what if I have that too? Then I feel terrible later because here they are really ill and I am just internalizing it to death. Very frustrating...
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Sun, 02-11-2007 - 7:56am
Wow! Very close! What city?
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Sun, 02-11-2007 - 11:52am

Portsmouth

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Sun, 02-11-2007 - 12:11pm

(((Amy))) That old control bugaboo): BTDT & it is so difficult to manage.


Accept the reassurance of your dh & dad

 

 


 



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Registered: 03-11-2004
Sun, 02-11-2007 - 1:11pm

Hi, Annie! Nice to meet you;) ;) ;)


I am so glad you added to this thread. You make some valid & important points that with the proper meds/therapy, schizophrenia is treatable. It is clear that you, like many with this illness have learned to identify when things are going south. That is great news! Not just for you & your friends, but to ppl posting who have questions & concerns. Thx for sharing.


Please don't be a stranger! Join us in posting & chats. GL&GBU! (((hugs))) jan

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