OCD? anxiety? or phobia?
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| Wed, 07-12-2006 - 4:46pm |
I am starting to think I have bipolar disorder. I was diagnosed with ocd at age 8 and sought therapy for it weekly unti i was 15. I still go to therapy when I feel i need it and have recently thought about joinging a support group for woman with mental illness. I am stressed due to my life situation righ now (no job, no med insurance, broke!)and not sure if my ocd worse due to those circumstances? could I be confusing my ocd with bi polar? Are ocd and bipolar linked? i know mood swings/ depression, anxieties run in both disorders. I just may also be in a slump and down and out and reacting to my circumstances? I do compulsive things I regret in my relationships also.
What I really want to know is why I obsess about dating men? when i go on a date AND even if I like the guy a little i obsess if he likes me or is going to call me. I often call him first to gauge his interest. sometimes I Call alot and hope he picks up so i can ask him out again.. dating rules confuse me and I am not good at games. When i leave a message or email a guy and if he doesn't respond almost right away I feel rejected and he isn't interested and often times I lash out at him and get made... say inappropriate things and act impulsively. I want to act normal! I want to not call him and just wait for him to show interest.. but i have the hardest time doing that. I have willpower in certain parts of my life, but when it comes to social skills like dating, I SUCK! I act retarded.. I act insecure and needy and stupid. Can someone tell me what is going on and how I can change these stupid habits? and what happens when I do fall in love with someone? i fear i will worry about him falling out of love with me and breaking my heart.. I fear rejection and I dont trust men.
I got a DUI a few months ago and I am taking it all in and its freaking me out. help! I am on zoloft, which is great, it helps.. the stress is a big part i know of me feelign this way... thanks for listening.

hi ladyocd,
I think you need to see the dr. to diagnos the bipolar. there are very specific things that go on with bipolar and you should definately seek your drs help if you think you have the symptoms. I know one of the signs of bipolar is the extreme highs and extreme lows. the highs will make you want to do risky things as you feel like you cant be hurt.
It sounds like you have alot going on that adds to anxiety too tho. which can cause depression. heck.. just having anxiety causes depression and low times. im there now.
the dating stuff, sounds very familiar. I've done the SAME things. remember that you are you. with out men, you still need to be you. find your self, love yourself, and then work on finding someone else. :) I still work on this myself. im always afraid my bf will fall out of love with me.. how silly when he tells me constantly that im it. and he loves me. we have to work on those internal negative thoughts!(PART OF ANXIETY!!)
all in all, I'd start up therapy again and seek your dr.s help so you know what your dealing with.
best of luck to you and keep in touch :)
There is a good chance that your drinking is contributing to the way you feel.
Sheri Ann
Welcome! Nice to see you posting. We cannot diagnose what is going on. That must be done by a medical professional. I am concerned that you are drinking when taking zoloft. That can be a lethal combination. Please take care. Noone wants anything bad to happen to you.
I have OCD & though many ppl that we hear about have repetitive behaviors, like handwashing, mine involves obssessive thoughts. I can see why you would naturally think of OCD in your personal relationships. Have you discussed this with a therapist? I have had good luck talking about my thoughts & fears. It doesn't mean you're crazy to get a professional's objective opinion.
I hope you visit us often & post anytime. Join us in chats. There's one scheduled for tonight. Don't be a stranger. Good luck & GBU! (((hugs))) jan