struggling, looking for support

iVillage Member
Registered: 05-27-2003
struggling, looking for support
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Fri, 07-14-2006 - 11:35am

hi ladies...let me just preface this with...thank you soo much for reading this and taking the time to respond to me...your advice/thoughs/and support are greatly appreciated as i feel so alone and it helps me to remember that i am not alone and that "helps"


last night i went out to dinner with a bunch of gals from my last place of employment and i was pretty anxious during the entire dinner...you know that feeling that overwhelms ya where you just feel like getting up and running home? it wasn't quit a full blown panic attack, but people were laughing and talking and all i could do was sit there and think about how anxious i am and how badly i wanted to leave...


i didn't leave, but it left me feeling defeated by my anxiety...


to top it off i 'm dealing with depression too, which i've honestly never had before...i thought i had it in the past, but in hindsight it was nothing compared to this...i have no energy to do anything, i feel helpless and hopeless and i don't get enjoyment out of life the way i use to....i don't recognize myself....i get crying spells almost every day where i just feel like crying and crying and crying mostly over frustration about the way i feel


i miss enjoying things, and i don't know how to begin to enjoy things again...i force myself to do things in hope that i will eventually "enjoy" things and so i don't isolate myself, but its hard to participate in things when i feel like this...like last night...i forced myself to go to dinner with the girls and i so badly just wanted to laugh and be a part of the conversation but i had a difficutl time concentrating on what they were talking about as i just sat there thinking about how badly i just wanted to go home and curl up in bed and cry


i do have a pdoc, counseler...i exercise, journal, and seek support here....i feel like i'm doing everything and i'm still depressed...this defenatly makes me feel more hopeless...that everything i "know" to do to help with anxiety/depression arn't helping


i'm just soooo frustrated ladies...any comments/advice/support is welcomed and appreciated thanks


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Registered: 03-11-2004
Fri, 07-14-2006 - 12:43pm
You have been through a tough time, Heather.
 

 


 



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Registered: 05-27-2003
Fri, 07-14-2006 - 3:27pm

hi Jan, I am done with the partial program.