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Feeling kind of scrared
| Fri, 07-14-2006 - 11:47am |
So, I have a question. I was wondering if anyone else has had suicidal thoughts from anxiety and stress. But the thing is, they are not really "thoughts". just the word keeps coming to mind. Its weird, I have never had this before, and its a little freaky. I was also wondering if the feeling of having an elastic band wrapped around your head is caused by tension in the shoulders and neck. i have had it for 2 days now and its driving me crazy!!! Please let me know what you all think about this situation I am in, ANY and ALL feed back is welcome!!
<3 <3 Kindra
<3 <3 Kindra

hi kindra, i have had suicidal thoughts/feelings from stress/anxiety....i sometimes feel like its the only way to stop the stress/anxiety...of course i would NEVER hurt myself, its just one of my scary thoughts:( it really sucks! i don't know about the tension thing, but i do hold tension in my neck/back/shoulders
hang in there...were (unfoturnaly) in this together
Im sorry your feeling scared kindra! first, ask yourself.. are you feeling like you really want to hurt yourself or others? or is it just the little word playing around? when my anxiety and panic was really bad in the last couple weeks, everytime the dr would ask me, are you having feelings of suicide.. the first thing that happened, was I couldnt stop thinking about the word. I was scared that I would lose control of my self and thats where i'd end up. i didnt really want to hurt myself or anyone else, but the minute people ask me that,, i freak out and think.. am i going to start thinking that? its a phobia i believe of being not yourself, out of control. please ask yourself the question if its really what you feel, or if its a fear inside. in any case, call your dr immediately or the crisis line in your area if you need help.
I feel like i have a TON of tension in the back of my neck and shoulders that feels like a band around my head too... it makes my jaw sore. remember your body is reacting to the stress of anxiety. maybe call your dr. and let them know, if you have meds, they may need to be adjusted. or you may need a temp fix like xanax.
hugs to you! breathe. we're here.
I have had the band feeling & the awful tension in my head & neck. Of course this sets off more anxiety because I think there is something medically wrong, but there is not. I have been checked by the dr. to reassure me.
Suicidal thoughts are never normal. Whether it is anxiety, depression, severe pain, etc. you need to call your dr. right away. These thoughts require professional assessment. We cannot do that for you, Kindra.
I have made an appoitment with my doctor, and I see him today at 2. I have also made an appoitment with a new psychotherapist, hopefully this doc will be better than the last one I saw. I have thought about it, and I DO NOT want to hurt myself, it's just a thought that is there. But I no that even just that thought means I need professional help and the sooner the better.I hate medication, and I think that that is why nothing has really worked for me. I worry too much about side effects, and after a day or two of meds, I have built myself up soooooo much that I have a panic attack and it scares me, so I quit the medication. I have done this now with Celexa (really was terrible) and with Zoloft. I just want to feel better. I look at everyone around me, and they are fine and happy, and then I look at myself and I am happy but not fine.... you no what I mean? It's weird. Its so funny to look back and only 3 months ago, I was fine. None of this was a problem for me, and it hadnt been for 6 years. Why after 6 years?? I just dont understand, and I think that is what is driving me crazy. I no you all have your own problems, but thank you so much for listening and understanding!!
<3 Kindra
You are doing the right thing. Seeking help is not a failure on your part. This has nothing to do with you or your character. This is a chemical problem in your body that was triggered after 6 years. You can & will get back to where you were. There are so many ppl on the board who can attest to that. I had a very severe spell of anxiety & was admitted to the hospital. It was hard because I didn't want to relinquish control & go into an unknown situation. But, it was the best thing for me. I will never regret it.
Good luck @ the appointment. Let us know how you're doing, Kendra. We care & want the best for you. (((hugs))) jan
(((Kindra))) I am happy you made an appointment, it is the first step.
Sheri Ann