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| Sun, 07-16-2006 - 12:55pm |
Haven't been here for awhile but really need to talk to people who understand. My son, my ONLY son,( I have 4 dd's) has cronic lymphatic lukemia. He went through several weeks of chemo last summer and into the Fall. Prior to that he had been in remission for 4 yrs. At his last check up they found his white count was once again elevated, an indication the cancer is back. He can't have anymore treatment until it has been a full year. He will have to ride it out for a few months. I saw the fear on his face when he was telling me. This of course has thrown me into anxiety. In just a little over a year I have lost 7 close friends and relatives. One of them being my mom to cancer the end of Jan. Two of them were my best friends, women my age. One to cancer, one had an anurysm. These are the people I talked to about my anxiety! I am so glad for this board as I feel I have no one now.My dh absolutely refuses to acknowledge or deal with my anxiety/ panic problems so there is no help there. I know I just have to get through it and I know I will but I really needed to talk to someone.
I have been having stomach problems for a couple of weeks now. I know its stress related as I've had all kinds of tests. I keep worrying that I have stomach cancer though. Two days in a row I've had those painless occural migraines which always throw me into a tizzy! I hate spending 20 - 30 min. not being able to see clearly! With all the deaths in the past year,dealing with my mom's estate and now my son coming out of remission I am stressed beyond belief. That causes physical symptoms, then I worry about them! Its a vicious circle!!
For years I have had a dream that something, (I can't identify it), is after me. I wake up in a panic!! I had it last night and woke up with my chest hurting, sweating and panic just rolling through me. I got up and calmed myself down then I layed there trying to figure out what was after me. After all these years I think I've figured it out! Its panic!! Do you think I could be right? The dreams are always different but something I can't see or identify is after me.
Thanks fo listening to me. Sharon

hi sharon and welcome to the board.
WB, Sharon. I wish it was under better circumstances. That must be really tough for any mother to see her son's cancer return. What sort of alternative treatments can he have until the year passes? I have seen ads on tv for centers that provide a holistic approach. They promote dietary changes, as well as lifestyle. Would your son consider this? Does his dr. feel that might be an option?
You need to take some time for yourself & de-stress. Hobbies, interests, exercise, yoga, etc. are things that work. With all that you've been through & the uncertain future, new ways to cope are essential. I don't know much about dreams, other than research indicates we work through our daily stress through our dreams. I have had dreams of being chased, but I saw what was chasing me. These dreams usually appeared when I was troubled & had experienced extreme changes or losses in my life. Please keep in touch, Sharon. We care & want to be here for you. Good luck & GBU! (((hugs))) jan
(((Sharon))) I'm sorry to hear you are facing someting else.
Sheri Ann
I am so sorry for all you have been through!! Losing your
good friends is awful! I am glad you feel that you can talk here!!
I get the occular migraines also--- do you take any medications
for anxiety or stress?? I have a doc who does hypnosis with me
and I listen to a tape he made each day which helps me totally relax for
20 minutes it does help me.
The only thing that helps me with the occular migraine is to
take a xanax and go to sleep!! Sometimes I do get a migraine headache also.
YOU and your husband need each other now I feel so bad that
he will not listen to you!! Does he keep it all to himself?
If you go to a therapist would he be willing to go also??
What you are going through is tragic and you need someone nearby
to help you. I hope that your daughters understand???
I will be praying for you and your family and son!!! Judy
GRACIE
Sharon, I LOVE the walking idea!!
Sheri Ann