So frustrated--I'm not getting better
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| Mon, 07-17-2006 - 10:59am |
I know this board is more for anxiety than depression, but I just need to vent a little bit. I have really taken a turn for the worse depression-wise. It had been getting bad, but then hearing last week that I didn't get the job I so desperately needed made everything so much worse. I don't blame my *T.* It's me. I think she's doing everything she can, but for some reason I am not improving. What is going on with my brain chemistry that things aren't getting better? I'm tired of this. I have been depressed off and on for nearly 10 years, and I feel like I've lost those years since I haven't been able to enjoy what should have been the best years of my life (college and 20s). I can't seem to make myself feel better, and I can't talk to anybody (well, except for *T*). My friends and family don't know how bad it is because I isolate myself and make excuses for not seeing them and pretend everything is fine. I don't want to talk to them. Everyone else I know seems to have their life together, and here I am a mess. I haven't done anything, haven't gotten anywhere in my life. I feel like a complete screw-up.
Laura


(((Laura))) I am hearing the depression in your words. You have suffered a big disappointment & it will take some time to move forward. Consider it a loss, like a death of a close friend. You need time to grieve over that job. Please try not to be hard on yourself. Sometimes we can be our own worst enemies. Discuss your feelings with your *T* or even a close friend. Find an interest, a hobby, do some volunteer work to keep your mind focused off the pain. It will take time to feel good about yourself after this setback. Take a look @ the self esteem boosters in the *coping tips & tricks* folder below. You can & will move past this. Good luck & GBU! jan
PS Research shows that anxiety & depression go hand in hand. You are NOT alone, Laura.
hi laura, i have anxiety with depression too, and my depression has also taken
(((Laura)))
Sheri Ann