I want it to end

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Registered: 06-13-2006
I want it to end
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Wed, 07-19-2006 - 3:38pm

I thought I was doing okay, but I'm not. Its been 6 weeks since I had my major anxiety attack and started paxil (25mg). Although I'm able to function better, I'm still anxious and depressed. Sometimes I just want life to hurry up and be over with. It doesn't seem like I'll ever be normal again. I used to have a wonderful, upbeat spirit. Even after my first attack 8 years ago, I was able to bounce back quickly with meds and then be fine for a while after stopping the meds. I'm calling my doctor today to see if I should up the dosage on the paxil. I don't feel like I can go on anymore. I need help.

Candace

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Registered: 05-27-2003
Wed, 07-19-2006 - 5:09pm

hi candance,....i know all too well what your going through....i have days where i'm feeling okay, and others where i am MISERABLE! and i just can't stop crying...i do feel "better" than i did 3 months ago when i "relapsed" into anxiety and depression, but i am no where near functioning at the level i was functioning at.

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Registered: 06-13-2006
Wed, 07-19-2006 - 5:37pm

Thank you Heather. You reply is encouraging. I talked to my doc. today and she uped the dosage to 37.5. I'll start tomorrow. I know I'll get better with time. I have to keep telling myself that. I do have a question though. When you have an increase in meds, do you go through the side effects again like when starting the meds? Yes, I do still take the Ativan. I knocks the edge off and helps me to function. I'm glad I have people to talk to who are going through this too.

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Registered: 07-03-2006
Wed, 07-19-2006 - 5:48pm

I read that you talked to your doc and they upped the dosage for you. I hope that helps. (o:

I saw my doctor today and my meds were increased as well. (I'm on Zoloft and today went from 25mg per day to 50mg/day.) I too am worried about side effects coming back as the first 10 days of taking my meds were not too much fun. I'll pray for both of us that that won't be the case. (o:

Take care,
~*~ Tangeloper ~*~

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Registered: 03-11-2004
Wed, 07-19-2006 - 7:38pm
I am sorry to hear how your're feeling, Candace. TBH, you need some real life help. Please call your dr. ASAP or go to the local ER. What you are saying is clearly a sign of deep depression. Any thoughts of wanting things to end should be treated by a professional. If you need someone to talk too, please call a local crisis line or dial 1-800-SUICIDE. Please hang in there. Life is worth it. You will get well. All anxiety burns itself out eventually. Please be safe. Take care. (((hugs))) jan




 

 


 



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Registered: 03-22-2003
Thu, 07-20-2006 - 12:47pm

(((Candace))) I'm sorry you had a rough spell again.

Sheri Ann