Is it real or in my mind?
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| Fri, 07-21-2006 - 10:59am |
I hope some of you can relate to this. I often have trouble distinguishing between what is real and what's imaginary. When I'm stressed out from work or other things, I notice it's even harder to tell what's real. My biggest fear is about germs and getting sick. Sometimes I worry that when someone is talking to me they might spit on my face by accident, and sometimes I *think* I feel it, but I'm not sure! I also HATE usuing public bathrooms. Whenever I wash my hands in the sink, I feel like the water from the sink has splashed on my lip or in my eye, and that germs from the sink are on me now. Same thing when I flush the toilet. But I am not sure if it really happened. It seems unlikely, but I can't tell! Can anyone relate to this? It's very exhausting! I try to tell myself it didn't really happen, but I can't convince myself.
P.S. If this really happened, I'd probably be sick all the time. I can't even remember the last time I had a cold.

TBH, whether you're healthy or not, these splashes, germs etc. wouldn't pose a real threat to any of us unless we were compromised by health problems that left us vulnerable. A good washing with soap & water would eliminate most any real danger. Since you are in good health, Babe, remind yourself that even when you thought you were exposed to germs, you didn't suffer any effects. In other words, keep the positive thoughts flowing when the negative thinking hits.
I have had the awful health concerns. My visiting nurse just left after packing my wound. Today it sort of hurt as she did it & I cannot shake the thought that she stuck my bowel & I will be dying soon of peritonitis. I am constantly *feeling* things that suggest a catastrophe is imminent. I can't even explain these feelings. Like a little ache or pain here. Or a tiny bit of nausea there. All I know is that I am sitting on the edge of my chair awaiting my doom. It is so irrational & silly. Years ago, I would get angry & beat myself up for such thoughts. I have learned not to do that. In a couple hours, when I am still alive,
I OFTEN times step back when talking to people, because of the spittle.. ICK! I just want to say, can you swallow a little before going on..
if its truelly becoming bothersome or hindering you from daily activities, and the thoughts are ALWAYS there, I think you should talk about them with your dr. its important to address and diagnose.
gb. :)
I agree, that is so true, about believing what our parents teach us.
Sheri Ann