really need some friends

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Registered: 01-05-2004
really need some friends
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Fri, 07-21-2006 - 8:05pm

i'm really scared right now, i've been posting on several boards for support and am besides myself with anxiety right now. i've never been diagnosed with anxiety or panic disorder but maybe i'm just in denial bout medical things.

i'm usually a healthy 39 year old mother of two boys, 4 and 6 and lately had strange things going on. vertigo, blurred vision, walking funny, shoulder weakness and then a burning sensation and tingly and i felt like i lost control of my fingers a few times. i've posted on the ms board and lyme board and now given my research am afraid i'm going to be diagnosed with als and i'm scared. i'm going to a neurologist on monday and am actually afraid to tell all that's happened because i'm afraid to know. i don't want to leave my two boys and my husband has had such a hard time with things in life, he doesn't deserve this....i really don't have many friends, have been praying faithfully, actually every night i prayed for years not ever to have als or ms and now i'm afriad my worse nightmares are coming through. i can't eat or sleep and am a big mess. are their any prayer boards i can visit to help me cope. i don't want to upset my husband, i haven't been officially diangosed but god all the signs are there and i'm so afraid of everything. ativan is helping a bit but too much makes me feel like i'm stoned. thank you for hearing me i just really need support right now. i haven't even told my parents because i don't want to devastate them but all the signs are there. i've had blood work and a cat scan and cardiac workup all negative. i wish i had lyme or ms at this point because at least i could live longer. i'm sure i'll have an mri and then the real nightmare will begin. please try to send positive thoughts my way. i'm so sad that i might not see my boys grow up. maybe that's why i had boys because it would be easier them being motherless and having a dad. i really need help, i'm a complete mess.

karen

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Registered: 03-11-2004
Fri, 07-21-2006 - 11:45pm

Karen, I am sorry that you have these thoughts of illness. I certainly hope that there's nothing found when you go to the neurologist. I wouldn't wish anxiety on anyone, but it is treatable & it's always in the realm of possibility. I have *borrowed trouble* as my gramma always called it since I was in grade school.

 

 


 



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Registered: 05-27-2003
Sat, 07-22-2006 - 12:30pm

hey karen....i am NO doc, and you should go to the doc to rule anything out, but your symptoms could also be symptoms of anxiety and panic...thats "good" news i think...better to have anxiety and learn to deal with it than ms....welcome to the board and feel free to post whenever you want! this is a great place for support for WHATEVER your problems...anxiety, stress, depression, worry....illnesses....


i just wanted to let you know that we are here for you and you are not alone...when i first starting having syptoms of panic attacks i thought something was really wrong with me physically...my heart would pound, i would get dizzy, feel tingly and numb...feeling spacy and weird,

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Registered: 03-22-2003
Sat, 07-22-2006 - 7:37pm

(((Karen))) Like Heather pointed out, all of your symptoms are also indicative of anxiety & panic disorder.

Sheri Ann