kim...

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Sun, 07-23-2006 - 3:08pm

kim,

how is it going?

i am once again going to try to wean, i just read a post
where you said you are a little cloudy from the meds, me too!!
i am also VERY hot, it is tiring and wonder if i might do
better off the meds, anyway, i am giving it another shot,
i took 10mg of paxil today, my reg does is 20.

wish me luck, my theory is that i will take xanex as i
need it and not fight it.

i have a disabled 5yo so when the panic comes i ususally
give up and resume 20mg........but also have my share of
panic on 20???

so sick of rhis!!!!

kris

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In reply to: basal1999
Wed, 08-02-2006 - 10:40am
Bumping this up so we can see if Kim can be caught;) How's it going, Kim & Kris??? Miss hearing from you guys. (((hugs))) jan




 

 


 



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In reply to: basal1999
Wed, 08-02-2006 - 12:28pm

hi Jan,

yea, how is she, Kim, where are you?

i have been on 10 mg and doing well....

when i initially went on the meds jason WAS 4 mos.
old so i was postpartum, but then when he was dx'd
with cp i decided it was a good idea to stay on..

i wonder if my brain fog is from being a special needs
mom or paxil.....i guess i'll find out.

as you know, i have had my share of panic in the past 5
years and also wonder how much the paxil helps??

i just hope i stick to my plan that when i am panicky i
will not fight taking the xanex!!

also, i never felt that my emotions went away, etc..like
some people say while on meds, but i
actually am feeling more emotional/vibrant..every time i
feel something or get angry, i ask myself "would i of felt
like this 2mos ago" does this mean the paxil has been
helping?...oh, i'm so sick of questioning every little
thought/feeling.........

another thing, does anyone watch starting over on NBC?
i am loving it!

kris

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In reply to: basal1999
Wed, 08-02-2006 - 12:58pm

i forgot to say i am taking fish oil, b12 and
magnesium here and there.

i have read tons on supplements re: special needs children
and anxiety.

i started giving jason magnesium for add behavior and it has
done wonders and i took it and it is a natural relaxant,
amazing!!

kris

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In reply to: basal1999
Wed, 08-02-2006 - 12:59pm

You are so lucky, Kris, to keep all your emotions. I have had a *frozen* effect with AD's that was unbearable @ times. I couldn't laugh or cry. I have been off AD's for 4 years & am now convinced that what I experience is *normal* for me.


The brain fog most assuredly is due to the stress of being a special needs mom. We all worry about our kids, but there's something different about a less than perfect child. They seem to need their mom's care & concern even more. I know that I was not a popular mom. I was an outspoken advocate for my mentally challenged dd & the schools she attended were never happy with me. But SHE GOT WHAT SHE needed. NOT what they wanted to provide. That was a stress & a trigger for my anxiety.


Stick to your plan, Kris. I have had some extra anxiety & though I hesitate, I know that klonopin will help me get some control until I am in a better posistion to cope. Good luck & GBU! (((hugs))) jan


PS Where is that Kim? Maybe vacation?





 

 


 



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In reply to: basal1999
Wed, 08-02-2006 - 2:52pm

Jan,

i don't know if you remember Kim's story from last year
but we have alot in common re: the ocd thoughts and the
doubt, i would love to see how she's doing.

and i remember about your dd, i live in NJ and am not
happy with the school, thinking about getting an atty
actually. did you ever go to mediation over anything?
can i ask what state you are in?

we provide all jason's therapies privately, but that
cash from that credit we have is going to run out
soon.

it's funny, this is not where my panic stems from, i believe
the more stress i have going on the less panic i have.
it's when i have time for my brain to wander...

so, you're on the as needed plan, encouraging to hear
that it's working.

i had my first panic attack on vacation with my dh
before i ever met jason, so glad i had this b/f
i became a mom, it's comforting that i don't have
panic disorder from having a disabled child and it's
just my make up AND had int. thoughts b/f i knew he
had a disability, if the thoughts started after i knew
it would probably be harder to accept.

kris -who also wants to know where that Kim is.

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In reply to: basal1999
Wed, 08-02-2006 - 3:26pm

I am in PA. Never went to mediation, but threatening too sure lights a fire under their behinds:) The cl just resigned on the IEP, 504 Plans & Special Ed board:

 

 


 



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Registered: 03-27-2003
In reply to: basal1999
Wed, 08-02-2006 - 8:35pm

oh, Jan, their kids probably don't even have
a hangnail, if they just knew what it was like!!

i also feel blessed!! i REALLY think you love them
more, typical moms would say NO WAY, but when their
kids are sick, throwing up, etc. you know their heart
is bigger with concern, etc.. my heart is like that
permanently!!

I HOPE I'M NOT OFFENDING ANYONE!! and i don't have any
typical children, only jason, so i'll never know.
i'm probably equating love to that concern but my heart
is definetly different.
it's a heavy blown up heart :)

kris - i just e-mailed you privately