Nervous about job application
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| Wed, 07-26-2006 - 3:37pm |
I was hoping to come here for some support. As some of you know, I was diagonsed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder back in early May before my daughter was born early June '06. Well, I also mentioned that I was applying to the Nursing School accelerated program. Well, the other day, my parents saw an advertisement in the paper for a state position with the local health department doing the same thing that I did in my position with the local department of Agriculture. With that position in Agriculture, I was forced to resign because I wasn't inspecting correctly as a food inspector when asked to perform inspections in front of the inspector. I think I mentioned before that I didn't like the position and that's why I resigned..well, that's partially true. I didn't perform up to par, and before I could make any corrections, they said that I wasn't performing by 3 mos, and therefore, I was under the gun to perform well during those 6 months. I partially attribute that as my fault, because during those 3 mos. I was over-confident, and when I was going to inspection learning sessions per week in different parts of the state, I wasn't really focused. I had a new b.f. and I didn't really study when I came home, so yes, part of that was my fault. Then after 3 mos. I found out that I could be fired, so stress got the best of me. It wasnt' until years later that I found out I had a performance anxiety issue hence the GAD.
I'm nervous again about applying for this position. Normally, before, I wouldn't apply because I thought that I didn't like Environmental Health (inspections), but now, after talking to the psychologist that some people like me don't acknowledge that they have a problem, and therefore can resolve this to breathing exercises, I'm applying again. In other words, maybe I am meant to be in Environmental Health, and this issue can be relieved through breathing exercises, and me just studying harder. You see, I was kind of arrogant, thinking that I didn't really need to ask that many questions, because I supervised people in the Navy with Env Health inspections, now I realize that I'm just as vulnerable as everyone else, and needed to ask more questions, and take more interest in my job.
Still though, I'm applying to the nursing school as a back-up, but now, I'm even nervous with that. My dear mother, who's a retired RN, was encouraging me to go to the accelarted BSN program locally..she knew it was 13 mos, but now, she's saying that I probably couldn't pass the NCLEX with jsut 13 mos of experience and that I would have to rely upon her and my SIL to help with the NCLEX.
I'm sorry, I'm just nervous. My dh thinks I'm crazy, because he said that I didn't like the inspections because I went to run-down areas. That also popped in my mind, but then, aren't there parts of your job that you just don't like that you just would have to smile through?! Besides, I do have a Masters/Bachelor's in Env Health, and the state benefits would be awesome especially in terms of Medical Insurance..my dh's insurance isn't that hot, and he and I are paying an arm/leg just to have our daughter on his.
Sorry, this is so long! Just had to vent!
Yaddiya

Hi, Yaddiya. I think alot of us would have difficulty making a decision on this. When I have to take the plunge, I mentally make a list of positives & negatives. I see that this is your field. You are educated in this area. You have past experience. The benefits are good & you can sure use them now. You feel that with therapy, you have better insight into your anxiety & can cope better. That all sounds very promising. The only way you'll ever know if you're right for this job & happy in it, is to give it a shot. Good luck & let us know how it turns out.
As for the nursing, I don't know how these accelerated programs work, but 4 years rolled into 1 seems a bit unrealistic. It might be ok for an LPN working towards her RN. Or someone else
Actually, I have two years of pre-requisites towards the BSN program from another university that I earned 10 years ago. Plus, I have 1/2 of the first year of the last two years of the BSN completed back then as well. Unfortunately, I didn't continue with nursing when I was younger. Kind of wish I did. All I would really have to take (my guestimate) is a history and Pharmacology course. Before you can go to this program, you would have to complete at least two years of pre-requisites, which it looks like I completed. My mom's friend's daughter actually had to take those pre-requisites recently since she has a Language Arts background. The Anatomy and Physiology course I took 10 years ago from what I hear is more challenging than the one offered at this school. My guess is that that courses I took at the other university would be counted.
Yaddiya
All you can do is apply for the position and hope for the best. It is a good idea to have a back up, nursing school is tough but an admirable profession. I remember you talking about it a while ago and it sounded like it was something you wanted to do. I recently passed my nclex and am looking for work so I totally understand your nervousness and anxiety related to it.
Hang in there and vent all you want, we are here to listen.....Lisa
I say apply for the job!
Sheri Ann
Thanks for all your comments. In regards to Sherri's question..I do remember going by the Dental Hygiene School from the same university where I earned the nursing school credits, and I know that they would accept my pre-requisites. The accelerated program director said that she would look at my pre-requisites mid-August to see what else I would take.
Yaddiya