Dh left

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Dh left
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Thu, 08-10-2006 - 7:03pm

Well, I dropped dh off on base this afternoon and his plane should be leaving any time now. Talk about an emotional day. I woke up feeling okay and we were getting last minute things done and running around and such and then he had some stuff to do that I really couldn't help with, so I laid down for a little while (new meds still making me groggy after the first couple of hours). That's when the anxiety started. I know that it gets bad when I'm holding in my emotions, but I just couldn't figure out how to let them out. So I talked myself down pretty successfully, but it started building back up again the closer it got to the time to take him in.

Anyway, we got on base and I helped him unload his gear and we went to his office so he could pack up some final stuff there and all I could do was cry. It was awful. I was crying and everytime he looked at me he would start crying, so I finally told him that it was ridiculous to be putting our selves through this. So we said our good byes and I left. I really think that was the best decision. Yes we could have spent another hour or so together, but it would have been an hour of me sobbing and him trying to comfort me and run around to get stuff ready to go.

I cried all the way home and when I got in I called my mom and talked to her for a good long time. I'm actually feeling much better now. It's like the damn broke and I was finally able to let it all out. Now we're on the road to him coming home. Only 364 days to go.

I know I've said it before, but thank you all for being so supportive. It is such a relief to know that I can come and post here when the anxiety gets bad.

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Registered: 03-11-2004
In reply to: jessdelphinian
Thu, 08-10-2006 - 10:43pm

(((Jess))) We're here for you. This will be a big change, but you will make it through. jan






 

 


 



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Registered: 03-22-2003
In reply to: jessdelphinian
Thu, 08-10-2006 - 11:00pm

Reading your post brought back sooo many memories for me, of my dh leaving for only a 3 WEEK deployment.

Sheri Ann

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Registered: 12-28-2003
In reply to: jessdelphinian
Fri, 08-11-2006 - 11:54am

(((((((Jess)))))))


I don't think I've really had a chance to get to know you yet.

Jennifer

"Oh, that you would bless me indeed, and enlarge my territory, that Your hand would be with me, and that You would keep me from evi

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Registered: 12-25-2004
In reply to: jessdelphinian
Fri, 08-11-2006 - 12:17pm

Thank you, Jennifer, for replying. I am trying to stay busy while dh is gone. Before he left I was having such a hard time figuring out what I was going to do with my time. I am such a home body most days, and my day largly revolves around my dh. I have always arranged my schedule so that when he is off I can be with him. I felt the need to do that because he comes and goes so often that I want every moment with him I can get. But this summer has been a doosey. We just moved here in April and we bought a house. The first half of the summer was all about getting the house in order and the second half was all about getting dh ready to go, so I really haven't had a chance to really settle into a routine. I was hesitant to start working before he left because I wanted to make sure I could be with him on his off time. Of course, the not knowing what I was going to be doing has been a huge source of anxiety for me.

I know he just left, but I'm already starting to feel like I can make plans now. I'm already planning a trip home in September. And some girlfriends and I are planning on taking a road trip to Vermont to see the fall colors in October. I'll most likely be going home for the holidays as well and that takes us into January. I am just praying that the time passes quickly.

Thanks again for your word of encouragement. I'll say a prayer for you and your family as well.

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In reply to: jessdelphinian
Fri, 08-11-2006 - 5:03pm
So sorry about DH leaving.


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Registered: 12-28-2003
In reply to: jessdelphinian
Sat, 08-12-2006 - 12:51pm

You are so welcome for the encouragement.

Jennifer

"Oh, that you would bless me indeed, and enlarge my territory, that Your hand would be with me, and that You would keep me from evi