Oh,Heather, I am sorry you had such a rough weekend! Just because you got great news, doesnt mean you "have to" feel great. I know how that feels and how frusterating it is to go backwards. The only thing I find that really helps me through that, is ALOT of positive self talk. I hope you start to feel better again soon, panic attacks when you are driving are the worst, and they seem to take the longest to get over too, Anyways hope your weekend was alright aside from all of the frustration, take care! Kindra
Heather, I know how frustrating it is when you have a set back. I think you just need to be a little easier on yourself right now. Yes you got good news, but the stress of anticipating the ultra sound combined with the stress of travelling would be enough to make me feel shaky too. Sometimes for me the anxiety comes after the event. It's like I know I have to hold it together for x event, but afterwards the stress of dealing with it gets to me, regardless of how it went. I also understand the fear of regressing to the bad anxiety levels again. What helps me when I have a bad day or a bad couple of days is to remind myself that everyone has bad days and that it's okay to have bad days. It doesn't mean every day will be bad or that every day will get worse. It just means that for whatever reason, today wasn't great or today was more difficult. Having a bad day just means that another day will be better. I think sometimes we forget that we're allowed to have bad days too. We don't have to beat ourselves up about it. It just sucks that our bad days tend to involved high levels of anxiety and panic, but it's still just a bad day. I'll be thinking about you! Lots of prayers and positive thoughts coming your way.
I have no words of wisdom for you. Heather. You have been up against this anxiety for a long time. You were doing well & can get back to that place using the skills that you have learned. It takes time to put those *out of the blue* panic attacks behind us. Just keep moving forward in the present.
Talk to the pdoc about when the cut in paxil is expected. Think positively. Do the best you can. P&PT's coming your way. (((hugs))) jan
hi everyone...thanks for your support and advice...its is sooo welcomed and appreciated....well, having another rough day...i just feel like venting and crying...so in advance, thanks for listening...
tylers sick with a really bad cough and got up 2 hours earlier than he normally does, so this doesn't help my feelings...he's also been such a bear to deal with lately, and i'm getting frustrated with him...he's begun to hit people and throw things and i keep saying No No, but he just laughs and continues to hit/throw...and he just doens't get it, and i don't know how to make him stop...he really is a very good boy, but he just doens't listen and i'm short fused these days...doesn't make for a good combo...
i'm just sooo frustrated this morning....:( i just want to cry.......so i do...........
i really think alot fo the problems i'm having lye in my beliefs...i don't believe i will get better, or that i can have peace of mind...but how do you change this...i try to tell myself, "it will all be okay, i will get better, i have gotten better in the past" but it just feels like i'm feeding myself lines of bull ya know?
{{{Heather}}} I don't have any words of wisdom either, I'm just feeling your pain. I'm so sorry you are having such a rough time. Even though you don't believe the "lines" you are telling yourself, continue to do so. You just have to hang in there until you deliver the baby, then you can try other meds that will hopefully really help you with the anxiety. These feelings will not last forever! You don't have to live the rest of your life with this much anxiety. Maybe after you deliver, you can get on ativan, klonopin or xanex for immediate help. Talk to your doc. about it. I'm praying for you!
(((Heather))) You will get better. When anxiety happens to us, we can be our own worst enemies. Keep thinking positively. Quote the *party line.* This will pass. I know I feel low now, but it will soon be over. I'm a bit frustrated, but who wouldn't be in my posistion?
thanks so much for the support...i trying to tell myself...i will get throught this, this is okay, i am not going to die or go crazy....ahhhhhhhhhhh....i just don't buy it on my bad days....
i'm still taking the paxil and zyprexa, althought i'm down to 1 2.5mg as oppose to 4 2.5mg pills a day....the doc says if the anxiety goes up again its better to increase the zyprexa then the paxil....but i'm not sure if the zyprexa worked...i just felt like it made me supperrrrrrr sleeeeppppyyyy and suppppeeerrr hungry....i put on 30 pounds in 8 weeks:( no good! so i'm not really excited at the prospect of increasing the zyprexa, but will follow the doc's orders...
Hi Heather I am so sorry about your panic returning!! I know how you feel about talking to yourself--- I think I can I think I can YOU had so much going on add to that the people who don't understand!!! THAT would send me!! It is unfair that they truly don't get it--- unless you have panic you don't know how it is! It makes you feel so weak and helpless!! To fight back you HAVE TO talk to yourself and only GOOD STUFF!!! Heather you have made it this far you have had good days =0) AND survived the bad ones!! Keep trying and soon you will feel better I KNOW YOU WILL!!! WE LOVE YOU!! Judy
Kindra
Heather,
I know how frustrating it is when you have a set back. I think you just need to be a little easier on yourself right now. Yes you got good news, but the stress of anticipating the ultra sound combined with the stress of travelling would be enough to make me feel shaky too. Sometimes for me the anxiety comes after the event. It's like I know I have to hold it together for x event, but afterwards the stress of dealing with it gets to me, regardless of how it went.
I also understand the fear of regressing to the bad anxiety levels again. What helps me when I have a bad day or a bad couple of days is to remind myself that everyone has bad days and that it's okay to have bad days. It doesn't mean every day will be bad or that every day will get worse. It just means that for whatever reason, today wasn't great or today was more difficult. Having a bad day just means that another day will be better. I think sometimes we forget that we're allowed to have bad days too. We don't have to beat ourselves up about it. It just sucks that our bad days tend to involved high levels of anxiety and panic, but it's still just a bad day.
I'll be thinking about you! Lots of prayers and positive thoughts coming your way.
Jess
I have no words of wisdom for you. Heather. You have been up against this anxiety for a long time. You were doing well & can get back to that place using the skills that you have learned. It takes time to put those *out of the blue* panic attacks behind us. Just keep moving forward in the present.
Talk to the pdoc about when the cut in paxil is expected. Think positively. Do the best you can. P&PT's coming your way. (((hugs))) jan
hi everyone...thanks for your support and advice...its is sooo welcomed and appreciated....well, having another rough day...i just feel like venting and crying...so in advance, thanks for listening...
tylers sick with a really bad cough and got up 2 hours earlier than he normally does, so this doesn't help my feelings...he's also been such a bear to deal with lately, and i'm getting frustrated with him...he's begun to hit people and throw things and i keep saying No No, but he just laughs and continues to hit/throw...and he just doens't get it, and i don't know how to make him stop...he really is a very good boy, but he just doens't listen and i'm short fused these days...doesn't make for a good combo...
i'm just sooo frustrated this morning....:( i just want to cry.......so i do...........
i really think alot fo the problems i'm having lye in my beliefs...i don't believe i will get better, or that i can have peace of mind...but how do you change this...i try to tell myself, "it will all be okay, i will get better, i have gotten better in the past" but it just feels like i'm feeding myself lines of bull ya know?
{{{Heather}}} I don't have any words of wisdom either, I'm just feeling your pain. I'm so sorry you are having such a rough time. Even though you don't believe the "lines" you are telling yourself, continue to do so. You just have to hang in there until you deliver the baby, then you can try other meds that will hopefully really help you with the anxiety. These feelings will not last forever! You don't have to live the rest of your life with this much anxiety. Maybe after you deliver, you can get on ativan, klonopin or xanex for immediate help. Talk to your doc. about it. I'm praying for you!
Candace
(((Heather))) You will get better. When anxiety happens to us, we can be our own worst enemies. Keep thinking positively. Quote the *party line.* This will pass. I know I feel low now, but it will soon be over. I'm a bit frustrated, but who wouldn't be in my posistion?
(((Heather)))
Sheri Ann
thanks so much for the support...i trying to tell myself...i will get throught this, this is okay, i am not going to die or go crazy....ahhhhhhhhhhh....i just don't buy it on my bad days....
i'm still taking the paxil and zyprexa, althought i'm down to 1 2.5mg as oppose to 4 2.5mg pills a day....the doc says if the anxiety goes up again its better to increase the zyprexa then the paxil....but i'm not sure if the zyprexa worked...i just felt like it made me supperrrrrrr sleeeeppppyyyy and suppppeeerrr hungry....i put on 30 pounds in 8 weeks:( no good! so i'm not really excited at the prospect of increasing the zyprexa, but will follow the doc's orders...
I know how you feel about talking to yourself--- I think I can I think I can
YOU had so much going on add to that the people who don't understand!!!
THAT would send me!! It is unfair that they truly don't get it--- unless you
have panic you don't know how it is! It makes you feel so weak and helpless!!
To fight back you HAVE TO talk to yourself and only GOOD STUFF!!! Heather you
have made it this far you have had good days =0) AND survived the bad ones!!
Keep trying and soon you will feel better I KNOW YOU WILL!!! WE LOVE YOU!!
Judy