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| Fri, 08-25-2006 - 10:03pm |
Hi!! I am new here. I have suffered with anxiety and panic attacks for as long as I can remember. I have been fighting taking meds. for a long time. I started Paxcil today and I feel horrible. I have spent most of the day in bed. I have very little support. I do have my hubby, but he works 10 to 11 hours a day. My best friend just lost her father yesterday. So she is dealing with her grief. I have had her girls for the last three weeks. They went home today. I feel so lost and scared. After I took my medicine this morning all I coud do is cry. I feel like such a failure. I have gone so long without taking any kind of meds. The attacks are getting worse as I get older. What is up with that? My doc. told me that is normal. My two girls have to see me go through all of this and it just breaks my heart.. They are so wonderful. They are there to give me a hug and kiss when I feel bad. But they shouldn't have too. They are only 9 and 3(4on Sept. 3). I can't drive very far from home because I think I am going to die and kill everyone in the car. I hate that. When I was younger I could hop in the car all by myself and take off anywhere. No matter how far. Sometimes now I can barely go two blocks. I just wish this would all go away.

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Hi & welcome!!
Sheri Ann
hi....i can totally relate to how you are feeling:( anxiety sucks:( i have taken paxil for almost 10 years and it has worked for me up until recently...there is NO shame in needing the help of meds...it DOESN"T mean your a failure....
besides taking meds are you getting any therapy? or doing relaxation stuff? the meds can only do so much, then we need to pick up the slack...
don't get me wrong, i haven't quit figured out how to pick up my own slack, but its not for lack of trying..
i have a 21 month old son, and i too feel really bad when he is around me when i am crying, he just looks at me so confused...i just pray he doesn't get this horrible horrible anxiety...
please feel free to vent and post as often as you need, we're here to support you and each other...we all can relate to how you feel
I also know how you feel! You are *not* alone although anxiety has a way of making you feel that way.
I have taken meds for several years now and it has really helped me. It can be a very hard decision to take meds but when you find the right one for you it can be life-changing. I used to have panic attacks daily but now it's only every now and then. My quality of sleep is so much better too. Like the pp said you do have to give these meds 4-6 weeks to notice full effect. And sometimes too those effects are subtle at first but the you'll realize one day that you are feeling better.
Try and focus on your sweet girls and the fact that you're doing this for them. I have a 9 month old and I too feel guilty when he sees me anxious and scared. But he also is the motivation I need to work on getting better every day.
Anxiety and panic are horrible but can be treated. You will get better, just take it one day at a time, esp. with the new med.
Just know you're in good company! :)
Thanks for sharing.
Sheri Ann
Hi & welcome!
Sheri Ann
I take the same dose of xanax and agree totally.
Sheri Ann
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