So confused..
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| Sat, 08-26-2006 - 3:37pm |
As some of you know, I had my first interview for the Health Dept job the other day. I don't know if I'll get a second interview, but my father was treating it as though I will. He said that if I get the second interview and hence the job, I should go ahead and take it. He said that if I don't (and they offer it) then he won't even support me for nursing school. Now, I know realistically, I won't know if I would get the job, but then, I'm not really sure if I even want the Health Dept position, and I'm just doing it to satisfy my father and that's it. On the other hand, I want this postition, because I can really help my dh support our family/new baby. We need two incomes to support our family, and my dh's alone won't cut it.
My dh heard "the discussion" at least part of this when I talked to my dad this morning on the phone. He said, "You know, you shouldn't even have told him that you got the interview." I feel ashamed to even be relying on my dad for nursing school money. I don't know who's more frazzled to get a job my parents or me. My dad was saying, "Well, if you don't want to get the hd job, then you might as well become a full time mom to your daughter, because I'm not going to support you. Then, if they don't offer you this job then I will suport you for nursing school?!"
Whenever my dh says I shouldn't get the hd job, I say yes, you're right. Then, when my parents/brother say try the hd job, because you now have the coping skills from the psychologist, I say yes! Then, I'm so worried if I wouldn't be able to hack nursing, because I might get the wrong hours, therefore, not see my daughter. Then, I'm afraid I might get sued like my dad said, because I know as a nurse the pt's life is in my hands, but then, I would love to take care of patients, but then, I'm pretty experienced in terms of ENVH, but I'm worried about inspecting run-down areas. I'm so confused! I just wish someone would shut up!!!
Sorry, just had to vent! This is the most indecisive point in my life.
Yaddiya

I truly can sympathize with you.
Sheri Ann