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Sun, 08-27-2006 - 12:25pm
Yes I am afraid to be alone most of the time. But I don't have anyone to be with most of the time. My mom lives out of state, my dh works about 10-11 hours a day. Most of my friends are busy with other things. My dh can't take time off of work. It really stinks. I started Paxil on Friday. It has been very hard for me. I have gone without meds for so long. I was told I had anxiety and panic attacks back in 1994. I had a long talk with my mom and she told me I have had it all my life. I was a very nervous kid. But it really came on after my Grandmother died. We were very close. She helped raise me after my parnts divorced in 1980. My oldest daughter kind of knows what is going on. She is 9. My 3 year old daughter has no clue. SHe just see me crying and comes and gives me hugs and kisses. They are wonderful little girls. I hate to have any attacks in front of them. Last Monday I was up in Washington with my mom, my girls, and my god daughters and I had a huge panic attack. I ended up in the emergency room. I couldn't get it under control. Most of the time I can. But this time I couldn't. It scared me so bad. My dsh convinced me to go to my regular doctor. So I went on Thirsday. I just broke down and cried my eyes out. Thnak goodness he is a great doctor. He told me I need to go to a therapist also. That is my project tomorrow. Well, I have ti finish getting the house cleaned up. I have a Girl Scout meeting today. Take care. You are in my prayers. Shannon
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In reply to: duranfan35
Mon, 08-28-2006 - 5:05am

(((Shannon))) I can imagine how terrifying it was to end up in the ER.

Sheri Ann

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Registered: 08-27-2006
In reply to: duranfan35
Mon, 08-28-2006 - 7:17am
thank you.i feel so bad for you that you dont have family around- i am blessed that i have my mom and 2 sisters besides my hubby.sorry to hear about your panic attack that landed you in the er-i t was that way with me 10 years ago when it first started and i didn't know what was really going on.good luck at your girl scout meeting- i have my parent-teacher group meeting this week also which i am an elected officer.wondering if i can get it together enough to go.are you taking xanax also and didn't it help to stop your attack?i am waiting to see a counseler but they are very slow to call you back and get you in.i really want the behavior therapy and relaxation techniques again.thanks again- i wish a great day.