Grieving an old friendship?

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Registered: 10-03-2003
Grieving an old friendship?
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Mon, 08-28-2006 - 11:01pm
I know this should be the last thing on my mind. I just had my baby a week ago and I am letting something that happened 8-9 years ago make me sad. Well, I had a best friend in high school that I really cared about. I have many best friends before and have some really close friends now. But there are some friends that are like soul mates. That is how I feel about Staci. Our friendship started our junior year in high school. We started talking one day and after that it just grew and grew. We got close so fast. Well, she started dating this guy and of course became really close to him. She is the kind of person who loves with all her heart. So it didn't surprise me when she gave her heart completely to her boyfriend. I was shocked that she just kind of left me hanging. I mean we were still friends, but she really let me down. I wrote her a pretty nasty letter and her boyfriend was so upset. He wrote me one back. Eventually we all apologized, but since that day I could not get close to her again. We still talked and saw each other from time to time. But no matter how hard I tried to be close her it was like a wall was put up and I could only get so close. We still email each other maybe once every six months or more. I just emailed her the other day to tell her about my baby. She emailed me back and she is expecting her first. I am so happy for her, but it is killing me that I can't share with her. I haven't talked to her on the phone in forever. I guess my question is how did grieve this friendship? I am 25 years old now, this all happened when I was 17. Why can't get over it? I have had other friendships end, but never felt this bad. I still keep in touch I just wish we had something deeper. I am scared to tell her my feelings because if she doesn't feel the same way I will be so embarassed. I just don't know what to do?

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Registered: 10-03-2003
Wed, 08-30-2006 - 9:59pm
I am sorry you are going through this!
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Thu, 08-31-2006 - 8:54am

Debbie, I tried answering your email & emailing you through your profile, both bounced back!


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Thu, 08-31-2006 - 8:58am

Hi & welcome to our group!

Sheri Ann

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