Urge To Jump Out Of Skin?

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Urge To Jump Out Of Skin?
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Tue, 09-05-2006 - 10:21am

Hello to all. I have not been on here posting in a while but have been reading and replying some. I am frustrated. I was doing fine and suddenly Sat night the dreaded "feeling" came. I think I finally thought of a way to explain it - I get this wave like feeling that comes over me (very hard to explain, like something is moving through me) and then get the sudden urge to jump out of my own skin. Does that make sense or sound familiar to anyone? I would say it feels like I need to flee but it is more like I feel I need to get outside of myself, AKA jump out of my own skin. So it does feel like an urge to flee, but more of an urge to flee from my inside self, maybe an urge to flee my own brain. And it is STRONG. You know what I mean? Then after a few seconds or minutes (seems like eternity) it will subside. Then I sometimes get physical feelings like feeling nausea or shaky and jittery inside and out. Sometimes even some sweating and maybe cold chills. This time I have not had too bad of an aftermath - more like just jitters and that dread that the "feeling" will come back. Sometimes I think that fear of it happening again is worse than the feeling itself. So, Sunday I worried about it off and on all day. Then it struck again Sun evening. Again, no trigger. Then same thing again Monday, off and on dread, then it happened again. Then this morning it seemed like it was trying to happen but so far has not. It is weighing on me big time though.

I HATE this because I have no clue what triggers me. I can go a long time and be fine. But when it strikes, I get so down afterwards because it dampers everything and makes me feel so depressed that I cannot get it out of my head. So, that is where I am now, feeling like it will strike again any minute.

-Kim

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Registered: 09-12-2003
Tue, 09-05-2006 - 11:47am

I completely understand! I get that way sometimes too. I feel like crawling out of my skin too (not literally but not sure how else to explain the feeling). I have even gotten up and walked around before to try to make the feeling go away. Don't know if that helps or not. I wish I kenw a magic trick to make it go away. Just remember that it is short lived and will go away. That seems to help me some!

HUGS!!!

Laura

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Registered: 03-22-2003
Tue, 09-05-2006 - 2:41pm

(((Kim)))

Sheri Ann

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Tue, 09-05-2006 - 3:11pm

kim, i TOTALLY know the feeling that unfortunatly...i often feel the same way...like i want to jump out of my own skin...like i need to flee from my own body:( its not a good feeling. i working too, to identify some of my triggers as at this time they are unknown...i hate hate hate anxiety:( ....hang in there and know you are not alone


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Registered: 03-27-2003
Tue, 09-05-2006 - 4:50pm

hey,

where have you been??

i know EXACTLY what you mean, that's panic disorder, you don't
know when it's coming....that's the WAVE!!

all i have read says to welcome it and accept it and go thru
it....i REALLY beleive this is the answer....hard to do!!

i get really pissed, so how is this really acceptance.
i think this is why i continue to panic..

trying to figure out the trigger....i beleive that once
you have memories of panic stored in your brain, that's all
it takes!!

but did you ever get so fed up and say "ok, come on, i don't
care anymore" and then had a better time of it?

Kim, try to accept it and let it go after it happens. i beleive
you have no trigger, try not to figure it out and let it be!
i need to practice what i preach. we are so much alike, i think
we follow a classic textbook of panic.

i have been wondering how you have been, where are you with
weaning?

let me know,
kris

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Registered: 03-11-2004
Tue, 09-05-2006 - 5:00pm
(((Kim))) This is classic fight or flight. What you're feeling after these spells is the anticipatory anxiety of another one recurring. For me that is harder than an actual attack. I have spent more time worrying about what might happen & it gets frustrating. I allow myself a specified period of time to worry, then move on to keeping mind & body busy. It does sneak back in & makes for some *nagging* but I keep pushing through. There is no magic cure. Just time passing & regaining our balance. Good luck. jan




 

 


 



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Tue, 09-05-2006 - 6:22pm
Yes! When I get the feeling, I HAVE to move. I guess I think I am running from it. I will pace or walk or something. That is one thing I always do is move. Thanks for replying.
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Tue, 09-05-2006 - 6:26pm
Thanks for replying. Yes, that all makes sense. I have been reading a lot about how to try not freaking out about it when it happens. And yeah, it sure is hard. I really badly want to be able to do this though. I hate that I give it so much power over me. I know it will not kill me and that it will pass. It is just so hard when you are in the moment. Sometimes I get depressed too about not being able to prevent them.
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Tue, 09-05-2006 - 6:28pm
Me too! I hate it bad. I got so mad today about it and then so down. I know that does not help matters but it really got to me today. I just kept dwelling on the fact that I cannot stop the darn attacks and how much I hate them. Naturally, now I feel all down about it.
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Tue, 09-05-2006 - 6:38pm

Hey Kris! Great to hear from you. I need to get on here more often.

It pisses me off too. I just hate it. I think I will try that I DO NOT CARE, BRING IT ON approach. Maybe that will work. My therapist mentioned that before.

I am totally off the Zoloft now. June 30 was last dose. Man, the 2 weeks of withdraw was hell. I felt so miserable. Like I had the flu and depression all at once. Then I was fine. I have done better off the med I think overall.

Yeah, we are a lot alike. That feeling is awful! Makes me so mad. You literally feel like you need to flee from your own self!

Kim

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Tue, 09-05-2006 - 6:42pm
Thanks Jan. Yeah, the in between feeling of dread is the pits. Makes you feel anxious and down all at once. I gotta learn to push through like you said. This is too much.

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