Will it ever be my turn

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Registered: 09-16-2005
Will it ever be my turn
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Wed, 09-06-2006 - 4:07pm

My daughter took me to the feed store today and I was in a constant state of anxiety and panic. I needed to be home and was so afraid to be away even for a short period of time. I thought I was gonna jump out of my skin and started hyperventalation. After I got home i went to take a step and my left knee gave way and down I went. Now I'm back in my knee brace. I guess I should be happy I have one. Will this ever end? It's getting harder for me to fight against it, I just want to ball up somewhere and never leave my "nest". Does anyone else ever feel like this.

Keitha

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Registered: 05-27-2003
Wed, 09-06-2006 - 5:36pm

keitha, i feel like this ALL THE TIME! i'm soooo sick of having to constantly deal with this anxiety...i just want to be "normal"...i think, "i am not asking for a lot here...i don't want riches, or nice "things" i just want to be able to live with out anxiety...is that too much to ask?"

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Registered: 08-27-2006
Wed, 09-06-2006 - 7:06pm
hi- know that we all have days like those and they will pass and tomorrow will be better.just try to keep busy and not think about the anxiety.i love animals too-i have a pug who keeps me company during those dark times.take care and remember this too will pass.
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Registered: 03-22-2003
Wed, 09-06-2006 - 7:10pm

(((Keitha))) I feel like that at times, as well.

Sheri Ann

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Registered: 03-11-2004
Wed, 09-06-2006 - 7:26pm

My home is my safety, too, K. I know exactly how it feels when you're fearful & away from that safety. In spite of everything, I know I must keep pushing my limits. Today, I drove to the next town twice. Not much of an accomplishment, but it is for me when I am sick & anxious & would like to pull the covers over my head. Try to break your tasks down into small bites. Breathe your way from task to task. Try not to look @ the whole picture because that can be overwhelming.


Be upfront with the dr. You are under alot of stress & he should know that. Good luck! All my T&P's are with you. (((hugs))) jan





 

 


 



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Registered: 09-16-2005
Wed, 09-06-2006 - 8:01pm

Heather I take Lexapro 20 mg and my doc refuses to up the dose. I also take perphenazine 4 mg. I have a feeling he may up the dose of this medication. It contains an anti depressent and an antipsychotic. Guess I'll find out tomorrow as I see my doc at 10:30. Thank heavens my DD drives or I would have to cancel as my partner is not back from Ind. yet. The ladies on have chat have convinced me I need to let him know all that is going on and has gone on in my life since I was 18. I'm scared to death but I can't go on with life as it is going right now. I'm beginning to scare myself cause things are happening I don't understand. I'm so afraid they are gonna want to put me back in the psych unit and I don't know if I can do that again. Main reason I've kept things a secret for so long. If you pray say an extra one for me I think I need it.

Keitha