Breakdown/Big Panic attack happening
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| Mon, 09-11-2006 - 8:58am |
I just got back from an executive PTA board meeting for my son's elementary school. It's a brand new school so this is the first year for all of us. I thought, despite my anxiety problems, that it would be fun to get and maybe help to get me over some of my social anxiety. (I am having a hard time typing between my crying and hyperventelating so please excuse me) However, it has been mostly hell so far. Today I think was the final straw. I am the VP of programs but I feel like everyone else is doing the planning and I am just left to pick up the ball of their plans. Today I actually got into a confrontation with the President (who I don't know well). I don't do confrontations, because I end up like I am right now. I am ready to quit, but how do I quit and still show up at my son's school? I can't even call my best friend to talk to her right now because I am incapable of speech.
Michelle

With anxiety it is difficult not to take things personally perhaps
these events are ones that occur every year??? You might want to ask
the PREZ what are your duties as VP??? If you feel you are not able to
take on this job then by all means bow out!! DO NOT FEEL BAD!!!
someone else will step in I AM SURE!! I do HOPE that things work out
for you so you can feel confident about what you have done!! YOU SHOULD!!
HUGS! Judy
Thanks. I am feeling better this afternoon, in that I am not crying when I try to talk about it. My loved ones (ie my husband and best friend) were ready to go beat up the person who made me feel this way. Which is sweet, but not going to help.
My mom and bf are trying to get me to talk to the lady, but it's so hard for me to do that. I am not a confrontational person unless it relates to my kids, and even then I have hard time. Most people don't believe that I am not confrontational because I am such a sarcastic person. But I have a very hard time standing up for myself. I have decided not to make any decisions until later, like later this week. I might try to email her and say something, but I don't know. Thanks for the support.
Michelle
You are one brave woman for even thinking of tackling this let alone actually doing it.
Maybe like some others suggested step back a bit, possibly you are overdoing it.
Not speaking may in fact be a positive because like someone else suggested you won't say something you might in fact regret later.
I admire you. My ds has this and it has been a long haul.
Ppl need to understand this isn't something that just won't go away.
It takes time and patience and an amazing amount of courage.
Baby steps I tell my son.
Someday it won't be so hard and for others who confront this daily.
Thanks because this board has helped me immensely.
I am aware more now than ever that I to may have this and have done a pretty good job of masking it.
Taking one day at a time.
I feel pretty proud of myself because I deal with a lot of ppl at work.
Learning to calm myself down and have acquired many new coping skills.
My self-confidence and self-esteem are definitely improving.
Just going to work today makes me realize how far I have come.
If I can do it I know my son can but on his own time.
All of us have the ability to overcome this in our own time.
Baby steps.
Hi Michelle and welcome to our board!
Sheri Ann
Hi & welcome!
Sheri Ann
Just finding this board has been a godsend.
It is a place where we can share and ppl understand exactly what it is like.
We need encouragement and I have found it here.
It takes courage to even admit you are dealing with this.
Many ppl are not educated or supportive when dealing with anxiety/mood disorders.
I have tried to advocate and educate what it is like to have this or have someone you love (ds) have it.
Dealing with it hasn't been easy but this is a great place to come and connect and share with others.