Update & ?

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Registered: 01-21-2000
Update & ?
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Mon, 10-02-2006 - 7:13am

Hey all! I have been doing my Pathophysiology course for the Nursing School for the 2nd Bacchlaurate Nursing program at the local school. So far, I've been making the right grades for the course, so I'm satisfied with that. I have to confess, this has been the first time that I felt this alive doing this course in a while considering all of the professional problems that I've been having.

My little girl will be 4-months-old tomorrow..that means more shots for her in her next Peds appointment! Oh boy! She's going to be cranky! *LOL* Lately though, she's been sleeping through the night, but as of a few days ago, she started to go through these late night feedings like she did when she was a little under 2 mos old. Whew!

In the meantime, I haven't really been feeling the anxious feeling too much lately. I went to see my FP doctor the other day to get the flu shot, and she asked me if I felt it as of late..the performance anxiety..mind you, I haven't worked since early this year..just been going to classes. So far, no go in terms of anxiety, but then I haven't really been working.

My question is: Can performance anxiety or the Generalized Anxiety Disorder symptoms just arise during certain situations? I thought the "Generalized" portion meant that I was always supposed to experience this. I've been fine in terms of taking my tests..so far made good grades, etc. If this is the case, and I'm not really experiencing it. I would like to think I'm getting better? Or, maybe this situation of performance anxiety is just situational, because the only times I experienced this is when I was working for Agriculture, and a little bit in some past positions.

Also, I guess I had another set-back this morning..maybe because my daughter has been keeping me up lately. Can I really say that I will never be able to work again in a permanent, stable job? This morning, I worried about whether my professional problems in the past is just a symptom of me not really being able to work. Will I make it through nursing school, will I kill a patient because of carelessness. I was hoping to ask you all to slap me upside the head, if I'm thinking irrationally? Thanks.

Yaddiya

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Registered: 03-11-2004
In reply to: yaddiya
Mon, 10-02-2006 - 11:10am

That's a pretty good update. Please focus on all the positives in your life, Yaddiya. IMHO, all anxiety disorders wax

 

 


 



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Registered: 03-22-2003
In reply to: yaddiya
Mon, 10-02-2006 - 10:31pm

Great update, keep up the good work!

Sheri Ann