more obsessive thoughts, and fears:(

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more obsessive thoughts, and fears:(
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Sat, 10-07-2006 - 8:25pm

hi everyone....


i've really noticed lately that my obsessive thinking has been getting worse:(

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Sat, 10-07-2006 - 9:01pm

Heather, you need to stay in the present.

Sheri Ann

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Sun, 10-08-2006 - 7:40pm

hi sheriann,


thanks for the support and advice...


its been another anxious day...:( i just keep having the obsessive thoughts (i'm so anxious, i won't get better, i can't handle this etc) and actually almost had a panic attack again!


i've upped my meds to 37.5mg paxil again, but i figure it will take a week or two to "set in"...i mean, i wasn't even taking that much less (i was taking about 31 mg a day)...i hope this helps....

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Sun, 10-08-2006 - 8:19pm

Heather,

Sorry you are going through this kind of thinking. What kinds of coping activities do you do when these thoughts occur?? Are you trying any deep breathing or other techniques. I think you should talk to your medical doctor about some of your concerns and let them know what is going on. Then you and the doctor can make an informed labor plan to deal with anything that could come up. I know that most women have fears about labor and delivery, it is completely normal.

Good Luck and hope things settle down soon,
Lisa

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Mon, 10-09-2006 - 1:48am

Eventually the thought replacement will begin to work, give it time! I know it seems hopeless, but I promise it will get better. You have one beautiful little boy already. If you were able to give birth the first time, you sure as heck can do it again. You are a strong woman, no matter how much dosage of meds you have to take. Anxiety requires us to take little steps forward. But one day before you know it, you're doing great. No step backward is a failure.

I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND!!!!!! :D

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Mon, 10-09-2006 - 11:06pm

You *almost* had a panic attack, means you didn't right??

Sheri Ann

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Tue, 10-10-2006 - 3:13pm

Heather,


Hang in there. Hard times are tough to get through but you have done it before and you will get through this one also.


~Heather


"Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you." 1 Peter 5:7

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Tue, 10-10-2006 - 3:40pm

if you go crazy, they are going to get that baby!!

i have to say when my water broke i took a 1/2 xanex
with no one's permission, i was SCARED!!

i knew it wouldn't hurt and the baby would be
OK!

i have ocd intrusive thoughts, no matter what i
tell myself they keep up, it's really the
worst thing.....anxiety s---!!!!!!

do you have a fellow panic friend that can
be at the hospital with you?

YOU ARE NOT GOING TO GO CRAZY!! i will bet my
eyeballs on it :)

kris

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Tue, 10-10-2006 - 3:47pm

ya know kris...i like that idea, taking a xanax...i've managed to not take any this whole pregnancy, but i know of a lot of women who take them occationally in their 2nd and 3rd trimester...it wouldn't hurt the baby to take one...and maybe it will be just what i need to calm me down a little...


i hate to rely on a medicine to keep me panic free...but labor is not the place where i plan to be too often (this is my LAST baby as i can't stand being preggo)


thanks all sooo much for the support...it really does help...espeically just to know i'm not alone...


today is "a little" better....i'm hoping that my increase in paxil will help alleviate some of the obsessive thoughts and the racing thoughts...i'm still pretty anxious though...waiting to feel better...i hate waiting

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Tue, 10-10-2006 - 7:29pm

my anxiety was full force AFTER delivery, when
jason was 9 days old i shivered (LITERALLY) with panic for 2hrs.,
finally decided to take a 1/2 and had to throw my milk
away for 48 hrs, i was pumping b/c he was in NICU, maybe
a week later i had to take another 1/2, again threw my milk
away for 48hrs, sometime very soon after that someone said
to me "he needs a mother, not breastmilk" that did it for me!!

i bought formula, my anxiety did not go away and i gave in
to taking meds when he was 4mos, (paxil) well six years later i still
can't go off meds, i try every year, the last being very
recent went to 10mg from 20mg, i went back up, i was struggling
way to much to stay calm..........i truly beleive i'm one who
needs the meds.......

i spend the day running around trying to feel better with
ya know, blah, blah, blah, it's time consuming.....i WANT to
enjoy my kid and focus on being productive.

i'm sure i'll try next year, we'll see.....

kris - who can't wait to hear your PANIC FREE birth story!!!

blah, blah, blah being: walking, deep breathing, magnesium, fish oil,
great talks with friend, husband, boards, books, salmon, spinach, etc.
nothing beats the hormones some of us have been blessed with :)

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Tue, 10-10-2006 - 8:49pm
Heather, as you know, Xanax is a category D drug, which can cause harm to the baby.

Sheri Ann

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