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| Mon, 10-09-2006 - 7:35pm |
Hi everyone,
It's been a while since I've written. A lot has happened, and I am overwhelmed. My husband's business finally closed, and now we are in debt up to our eyeballs. It's horrible. He took everything and put it into the business (which was not even open more than a year.) Basically, he didn't have enough money to start with.
Anyways, I am writing because I feel myself slipping. I am starting to really ruminate about friends and stuff that should not matter. I find I am anxious 24/7 and I am trying so hard to be in the moment. I can't.
I am over my head, and I am so resentful, yet sad. I am mad at my husband, but yet feel awful for him. UGGG.
Thanks for reading. Gotta put the kids in the bath. I was able to steal five minutes to write this. I'm so tired.
xoxo, JD
ps. Happy Birthday Jan.

(((Jolie))) That's a shame. I know it must be hard worrying about money on top of other anxieties. You know, so many businesses fail, but that doesn't mean that ppl shouldn't try. I am sure your dh had a vision that he felt would translate into a financial success for his family & a positive career move for himself. I mention this only because he is probably devastated & having feelings much like you. Try to see the positives. I bet he learned more from this life experience, than any professor could ever teach him.
You have been through anxious spells before & pulled through. You WILL do this again. You are doubting yourself because you have lost some safety. Keep busy. Make your list of positive affirmations and/or your accomplishments & refer to it when you begin to ruminate. Allow yourself a time limit to focus on these thoughts about how your friends view you. Then, move on. They are NOT based in fact. It will take some time to get your self-esteem reserves built up. Good luck & GBU! jan
PS TYVM for the birthday wishes:)
(((Jolie))) I'm sorry to hear things didn't work out with the business.
Sheri Ann
Jolie,
I am sorry that the business didn't work out. That is really a shame.
You haven't posted in a while and that is a good sign. It seems as though you have been doing well.
Try to hang onto the times when you have felt well and happy. Remember that things will get better and you will feel better.
~Heather
"Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you." 1 Peter 5:7
hi jd,
it sucks to feel yourself slipping...i can relate...i'm slipping myself:( but the good news is if you "catch" it, you can do things to help prevent yourself from totally slipping.
keep us posted on how you are doing.