Hello, it's been awile............

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Registered: 10-09-2006
Hello, it's been awile............
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Mon, 10-09-2006 - 11:43pm

I also posted this on Obsessive Compulsive Disorder message board,

Hello, I haven't been here in such a long time. I'll quicklty tell about myself, I first came here about 3 or 4 years ago because I started having "intrusive thoughts" of hurting my children and have since been on Zoloft. Zoloft has helped tremendously and I can't imagine going off, because I don't want to get to where I was before. The reason I've decided to come here again is because I need some more advice. I don't really have bad thoughts about my kids anymore but I do get extremely panicky if I hear or fear of getting that way again. Today my mother in law wanted to go out for coffee just her and I. We went but kind of made me very worried. She was asking how I was doing and about my new job and I told her that I still loved my new job and how I can't wait to go to work when it's the weekend. Well, she then says to me "do you think you feel like that because your not happy at home?" Well, because I obsess so bad about things I immediately felt the nervous feeling s and thought could that be true? Does that sound bad? I don't feel like it is a problem the only thing that I may not be happy with at home is how sometimes my husband is not romantic enough or nags way too much that I just feel like I don't want to be around him. Is that a bad thing? I mean I love him but sometimes I just want to be away from him or to do my own thing with or without my family sometimes. My mother in law thought that I might be getting depressed again. Not only that she then told me that my daughter is hurt that I can't remember lots of things. I just forget very easily, does that mean there is something wrong with me or is it depression? I don't want to be depressed. Now all day I've been obsessing about it again thinking I'm going to spiral out of control again. What is going on with me? I don't want to be afraid of my own feelings. Sorry this is so long, I could continue to write more but I'm so scared to tell more because then it might really mean I am depressed again. I just want some understanding I guess. Please help!

I just needs some answers/advice...I get so lost sometimes. :(

Suzie

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Registered: 03-11-2004
Tue, 10-10-2006 - 1:42am

Hello, Suzie! WB Though I don't think

 

 


 



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Registered: 01-17-2001
Tue, 10-10-2006 - 9:17am

Hi Suzie,


You seem to be doing really well and that fact that you saught help years ago is amazing.


It is natural for you to need some time away from your family. You need to take care of yourself and then you will be ok to take care of your family.


Try not to let your anxiety get the best of you and keep doing what you know is right.


~Heather


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Registered: 03-22-2003
Tue, 10-10-2006 - 9:17pm

Hi Suzie & welcome back :)

Sheri Ann