Will I ever be okay again?

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Registered: 06-13-2006
Will I ever be okay again?
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Thu, 10-26-2006 - 4:08pm

Will I ever be okay again? I was not successful getting off ativan this time, so I'm taking it again and still on paxil. Even though I'm not having much anxiety, I still have this deep feeling that something isn't right. When I'm okay, I feel jarred into thinking I'm not supposed to be. I'm drifting away from my husband and can't seem to get back to him. He misses me. I feel so alone, though I'm surrounded by people who love me. I enjoy my job, love my kids & house, have plenty of money and am healthy physically. My hormone levels are fine and so is my thyroid. So, why do I continue to feel depressed and anxious off and on? I'm so confused. Therapy hasn't been much help. I feel like I'm standing on the edge and could fall off at any moment. Please help.

Candace

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Registered: 07-28-2004
Thu, 10-26-2006 - 4:45pm

Hi Candace,

I think the "why" of things happening is the hardest to deal with. I wish I could be more help, but at least you are aware of all the good things in your life and if you hold onto them, I think things will get even better. So much of how we feel is in how we percieve things and that can be the hardest thing to change...I know I have so many repetitive thoughts about the negative in my life and it seems impossible to embrace the good & thus the good feelings.

Sometimes it is just brain chemicals and taking needed medication is nothing to feel guilty about. Do other people who are ill, feel guilty about needing treatment? I think it is an unfortunate misconception that makes us think that mental processes and feelings are something we should just be able to control or snap out of.

Hugs,
Dee

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Registered: 05-27-2003
Thu, 10-26-2006 - 6:01pm

hey candace,


i'm sorry you are stuggling...your not alone....i'm right there with ya:(

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Registered: 06-13-2006
Thu, 10-26-2006 - 6:17pm

I wish I could join the chats, but my computer won't allow me to join in. I'm not sure what the problem is. I do try relaxing techniques and thought replacement. It helps a little, until my mind gets back to the sadness! I don't mind taking meds, as long as they work.

I don't understand where this is all coming from. I wasn't like this before the hysterectomy. I did have episodes of anxiety and depression, but with meds and therapy, they faded away. Is there a way to test body chemistry?

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Registered: 03-11-2004
Thu, 10-26-2006 - 6:18pm

Yes, you will be ok, Candace. I wouldn't tell you that if I didn't know it personally. Besides, so many people have posted this question to the board

 

 


 



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Registered: 09-16-2005
Thu, 10-26-2006 - 6:50pm

Mom not to get off the subject but do you have Java downloaded to your cp. Without it you can not get into chat. If you don't have it you can download it free off the computer. Might give it a try we would love to have you in chat.

Keitha

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Registered: 03-11-2004
Thu, 10-26-2006 - 7:13pm
Thx, K for reminding me about this. I just posted the chat troubleshooting guide. Some days it takes a ton of bricks;) jan


 

 


 



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Registered: 03-22-2003
Thu, 10-26-2006 - 10:27pm

(((Candace))) Could you be concentrating on the anxiety too much?

Sheri Ann

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Registered: 03-22-2003
Thu, 10-26-2006 - 10:28pm

(((Candace))) I was just thinking, if you read back to your older posts, remember how bad you were doing??

Sheri Ann

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Registered: 06-13-2006
Fri, 10-27-2006 - 8:18am

I'm actually feeling better now, but not quite normal. I do remember how bad I was back in June. I'm thankful that I'm not there again. Ok, so I had a setback. It happens, but it is temporary. Saying that to myself does help and gives me hope. I'll download java so I can join the chats. Thanks everyone!

Candace