Anyone Else Experience This?
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| Mon, 11-13-2006 - 1:38pm |
Hi Everyone. Hope all of you are doing well.
I have been doing well with the anxiety and OCD for a few months now, up until the last few days and now I feel like the anxiety is returning. Something is happening lately and I want to know if anyone else has this type of thing happen, because it is scaring me to where I think I am losing it mentally. Here is what happens...I will be feeling ok and suddenly something will pop into my head. The other day it was a dream I had the night before about a kid I went to school with from early days. Well, the dream was nothing bad at all and I started trying to remember what this kid looked like. Well, it has been many years (I am 30) and I could not recall what his face looked like. No big deal right? Should have been no more than when you cannot recall what a song's name is or can't get a song out of your head. But NO - I totally went into this thing where I HAD to recall what his face looked like or I was going to just explode. It was like this urgency feeling and it rose and rose and I was sweating and then it finally broke and I was ok again. Well, it scares me so bad that then I worry about it happening again. I do this with other stupid things. Like if I cannot do something with my hands in just a certain way (usually a way that is impossible to do physically) or if I cannot do something with my breathing or speech a certain way. Then last night I woke from a deep sleep to go to the bathroom. Well, you know how your eyes are out of focus and you see spots and stuff sometimes? Well, I get back in bed and close my eyes and that flashing dots thing was happening. No big deal I tell myself. But, suddenly, I start thinking that maybe it will never stop and maybe it will be that way forever and before I know it, the flashing is worsening and I cannot get it to stop and I get all worked up. Finally, I opened my eyes and stared into some light and it stopped and I was ok. But here I am today, feeling miserable about all this and the fact that I get that worked up over NOTHING. I remember one other time a while back where I was having some anxiety and told myself to visualize a stop sign. Well, I did but then could not get rid of the image of the darn stop sign and it started to bug me and I thought it would never go away and I flipped. It is always about stupid things that I get all obsessed like this and lose it. The funny thing is that it is never anything significant and I do not worry what the image or idea or action is, I just go into this extreme thinking mode where I think I HAVE to stop it and the fear that it will never leave - or in other cases, I have the strong feeling that I have to be able to do whatever it is I am trying to do or remember something precisely and flip out when I cannot.
Anyone else out there want to share their experiences? I would greatly appreciate it.
Kim

It's always good to hear from you, Kim. Wish it was under better circumstances): I can't really say that I have had similiar experiences. Though I have seen lots of spots, dots
Hi Kim,
I have not experienced that myself, but wanted to send (((hugs))). Jan gave some sound advice. It does sound like obcessive behavior that cognitive therapy might help.
Hugs,
Dee
Hi Kim, My son, who has OCD, experiences similar events.
Sheri Ann