thank you for all your support. me and the bf had a big fight tonight. make a long story short. he doesnt want to be with me because he cant "stand" me anymore. he threw me outta his moms with no shoes me crying so hard my chest was hurting , it all started cause i made a scene at his job cause i was supossed to go somewhere with him than he tells me hes gunna drive these asses than he'd pick me up well excuse me if i was upset cause i wanted to go, and i dont know what i said at his job to make him soo angry. this happened at 230ish i tried calling hima t 430 to see if he was gunna after all take me to shop since i got no clothes, no answer fine i figured he was still working so i waited til 530 wen i knew he's be outta work no answer.. 630 comes around still no word and im here waiting waiting trying to stay calm. which i couldnt i kept trying to call than i finally went fine i got in my car and drove to his moms, he opens the door goes what do you want? ha what an ass, i told him i waited inside the apt all day for his call i didnt evan eat cause i didnt wanna leave and risk missing his call. he said he didnt care and hes had enough of me. and i need to move on, so i asked what are we eating he ignores me..i tell him that i dont only need to eat for myself i need to eat for the baby thats in me.. and the baby could die if i dont eat enough. he replied and said good if you die too i dont have to deal with u or baby. and im the biggest mistake ever. and he doesnt care about me or the baby, so i went got food sat in front of tv with my food. he tells me no u cant sit here and eat u gotta sit at dining room table, i said well i want to watch this show , im not like you who can barley get food in ur mouth. so he takes me throws me to the ground and tell sme to get the f*** out. so by this time im really crying he grabed my arm soo hard , its bruised. so what am i supposed to do? he wants me outta the apt. i dont have family or friends who will take me in. and im on unemployment , i dont want to be on my own,i know im dumb for evan still wanting him, i think its mainly i dont want to have this baby alone i want to feel loved, ive had so much heart ache in my life and im not evan that old.when i was around 14 i think, we got taken away from my mom she had drug problems my step dad just left me and my 2 brothers and took his 2 kids with him, so my uncle stepped in and took care of us there was barley any food in house. ha. and every weekend hed make us go to my grams. than he finally couldnt handle us any more so he sold our house gave us to my gramma , to make it short , it really hurt that everyone who was supossed to love me left , and i havent been the same since than . wow im rambling. sorry.
I am so sorry to hear all this. It is very traumatic.
I don't really have any experience with domestic abuse which is clearly what this is. Look at some of the links to the other boards that one of the CLs posted in response to your post. There are shelters you can go to in times of crisis like this. I am sure some of the members of those boards can give you guidance in a situation like this.
You need to get away from your boyfriend, he is abusive and you need to take care of yourself and your child right now.
Sorry you are going through so much; I know it is hard to let go when you feel like you have no one else, but this sounds like the relationship is over from his point of view and by pushing it like this, you are just going to get treated badly.
There are groups that offer help and moral support to single mothers. You will qualify for WIC, which is not only free food, but will arrange free prenatal care. Apply for benefits from DHS. You will qualify and they'll also look into getting child support out of your bf.
Please take some of these steps to look after yourself and the baby. There is help and people who care.
(((Roxy))) I am sorry that the relationship has fallen apart with your bf. You need to focus on keeping yourself & your unborn baby safe. No woman deserves to be treated as you have been. It is against the law. Call your local police department & they will help you with options to your current living arrangements & your legal rights. Look in the yellow pages of the phone book under social services. There will be agencies listed for domestic violence or women's shelters.
In the meantime, I suggested the relationship boards in an earlier post. They would suit you & what you are facing much better. We deal with people suffering from anxiety disorders. You also would find help on the expectant mother boards.
Also, the terms of service on iVillage does not allow foul language or use of *&^% to fill in for a dirty word. Please edit your post by clicking the edit button @ the bottom of the post & deleting the language you used.
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I am so sorry to hear all this. It is very traumatic.
I don't really have any experience with domestic abuse which is clearly what this is. Look at some of the links to the other boards that one of the CLs posted in response to your post. There are shelters you can go to in times of crisis like this. I am sure some of the members of those boards can give you guidance in a situation like this.
You need to get away from your boyfriend, he is abusive and you need to take care of yourself and your child right now.
Hi again,
Sorry you are going through so much; I know it is hard to let go when you feel like you have no one else, but this sounds like the relationship is over from his point of view and by pushing it like this, you are just going to get treated badly.
There are groups that offer help and moral support to single mothers. You will qualify for WIC, which is not only free food, but will arrange free prenatal care. Apply for benefits from DHS. You will qualify and they'll also look into getting child support out of your bf.
Please take some of these steps to look after yourself and the baby. There is help and people who care.
Hugs,
Dee
(((Roxy))) I am sorry that the relationship has fallen apart with your bf. You need to focus on keeping yourself & your unborn baby safe. No woman deserves to be treated as you have been. It is against the law. Call your local police department & they will help you with options to your current living arrangements & your legal rights. Look in the yellow pages of the phone book under social services. There will be agencies listed for domestic violence or women's shelters.
In the meantime, I suggested the relationship boards in an earlier post. They would suit you & what you are facing much better. We deal with people suffering from anxiety disorders. You also would find help on the expectant mother boards.
Also, the terms of service on iVillage does not allow foul language or use of *&^% to fill in for a dirty word. Please edit your post by clicking the edit button @ the bottom of the post & deleting the language you used.
Please take care. Good luck & GBU! jan
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