I'm back :(

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Registered: 06-16-2004
I'm back :(
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Mon, 12-04-2006 - 3:39pm

I was doing so well too...


My anxiety started after I had my second child 7 months ago and then I started having breast pain and just knew I was dying of breast cancer. I went to tons of doctors and then a specialist who told me they could not find anything wrong with me and just like that I was better. The breast pain and anxiety went away for a month or longer. Then the breast pain is back and I am googling like crazy and worrying. I clearly see on the pictures that the pain I feel is muscle but I can't get that through my head.


I hate feeling like this. Every little symptom I have of any problem, I assume I am dying. I hate, hate, hate it.


Tina

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Registered: 05-27-2003
In reply to: lneonkia
Mon, 12-04-2006 - 4:59pm

i'm sorry your anxiety has returned.

iVillage Member
Registered: 06-16-2004
In reply to: lneonkia
Mon, 12-04-2006 - 5:07pm

Hi,


I am taking Zoloft, I forgot to mention that. I had an appointment to meet with a therapist but I was doing so well I thought that I cancelled it but now I need to call again. I know my grandmother has had anxiety all her life really bad so I guess I am getting it from her too. I just hate worrying.


Tina

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Registered: 09-16-2005
In reply to: lneonkia
Mon, 12-04-2006 - 7:13pm

Tina excessive worry seems to be a common denominator in all of us suffering from anxiety. No words of wisdom but you are not alone.

Keitha

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Registered: 03-11-2004
In reply to: lneonkia
Mon, 12-04-2006 - 10:09pm

It's nice to see you again, Tina. Sure wish it was under better circumstances. I can certainly relate to putting an intrusive thought to bed & having it reappear. Don't allow it to get you down. It goes with anxiety territory. Keep it in perspective. Give it a certain amount of time & move on. Focusing on it will only keep you frustrated. Try very hard not to google health info. As my gramma always said to me, *don't borrow trouble.*


Here is a recent article that has alot to say about worry & how to put it in it's place. http://messageboards.ivillage.com/n/mb/message.asp?webtag=iv-bhpanic&msg=21511.1&ctx=0

 

 


 



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Registered: 06-16-2004
In reply to: lneonkia
Mon, 12-04-2006 - 10:13pm

Hi. I will read that and hopefully it helps a little. The problem I am finding is that my pain is real but the drs are trying to make it seem like it isn't but I know it is, know what I mean? So every time it hurts, my minds starts wandering and I start googling...lol.


I'll write more tomorrow-my baby is up already.


Tina

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Registered: 03-11-2004
In reply to: lneonkia
Mon, 12-04-2006 - 10:25pm
That's a shame, Tina. Pain is pain. Whether there is a basis for it or not. Sometimes it can be our own emotional pain that contributes to it. Nonetheless, it's there. You know it & I know it. I am hopeful that a therapist would be reassuring to you. Sometimes I am ashamed to say I'm part of the medical profession. They had the same psychology courses as I did. Apparently they missed class that day): Sending P&PT's your way. (((hugs))) jan

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Registered: 06-16-2004
In reply to: lneonkia
Tue, 12-05-2006 - 9:31am

I guess the doctors are thinking they have done everything they could from a medical standpoint to assure me I am not dying but I refuse to believe it. They keep saying it is muscle related from picking up my son who is disabled and weighs 50 pds and holding a 7 mth old but I can't think rational these days.


I am going to call the therapist today for sure.


Tina

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Registered: 03-22-2003
In reply to: lneonkia
Tue, 12-05-2006 - 8:20pm

Hi Tina!

Sheri Ann

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Registered: 06-16-2004
In reply to: lneonkia
Tue, 12-05-2006 - 8:27pm

Hi,


I won't be able to make it to chat tonight :( My son is having a bad day and I am about to bathe him. Thanks for listening everyone-it makes me feel better. I am still convinced I am dying of something but I guess if I have no concrete proof I need to move on for now...


Tina

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Registered: 03-11-2004
In reply to: lneonkia
Tue, 12-05-2006 - 9:10pm
If it helps any, Tina, I have been near death *in my mind* with every panic attack for the last 36 years. I can never decide if I am really escaping death or I truly am one dang lucky old lady;) Hope you feel better soon. (((hugs))) jan

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