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| Tue, 12-05-2006 - 1:20pm |
It's moments like earlier that make me wonder if I should just call it quits and check myself in somewhere. Complete panic attack for no real reason.
I was calling my DH to ask him something and could not get him on his regular cell. Not unusual. So I tried his desk line, which said it was not working. Huh? He works for a major company how can that be?
So the little voice starts up. What if he lost his job and they disconnected his phone? (No reason that he would have, but that is where I usually go) So I try his work cell phone (which he almost never lets go to voice mail) and it goes to voice mail. The voice in my head gets louder. Stomach starts churning, hands start shaking, the usual signs of an attack. I try his desk like again through the 800 number and get his voice mail this time and leave a message. Surely they would have disconnected that too if he wasn't working there anymore. Why isn't he picking up one of his phones? I call his regular cell again and leave a message. Call me when you get a chance. Every nerve in me screaming "Call me now!!!" I go downstairs and decide to stop the full blown attack I can feel starting and take a Xanax. It is rare I will take one, but these days it seems more usual than unusual.
The phone rings. It's Dh. He's at lunch. No worries. I hang up with him and decide I am just insane.

Sheri Ann