Obsessive behavior

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Registered: 06-16-2004
Obsessive behavior
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Tue, 12-26-2006 - 5:47am

I have it and want it to go away so bad. I have become so obsessed with thinking I just have to have breast cancer because of the underarm/breast pain. I read the symptoms of this one particular BC months ago and ever since, I will swear I have one of the symptoms and then obsess over it. For instance, breast size changes. I swear one is bigger than the other all of a sudden so I will look at them every time I pass a mirror(crazy, I know). This will go on for a while and then I will calm down and look again and realize they are the same. Now I was sound asleep and woke up thinking of another symptom so I am back to doing it again. It's like I am always looking for a sign that I have it.


Has anyone else experienced anything similar? I am on Zoloft and when I was originally started on it, I was having symptoms of postpartum depression and I feel that Zoloft has helped with that but the obsessiveness is getting worse and worse. The therapist I have seen says that she thinks it's not anxiety that is causing obsessiveness but my obsessiveness is causing my anxiety but she said she didn't really know of any other medicine besides Zoloft that would help. Any ideas? I go back to my doctor on January 4th and I am scared to death to let her do a breast examination. I have serious issues.


I know most of this stems from having a terminally ill child and I am worried that I will die before him. I'm always thinking if I die, who will take care of him and all these other thoughts. I just have to get past this. It's really interering with my life and I can't enjoy my days with my children because I am too busy looking at my breasts.


If you read this far, thanks. I really had to get that out.


Tina

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Registered: 01-31-2004
Wed, 12-27-2006 - 3:26pm
{{{{Tina}}}}} I also have obsessive and irrational thoughts.
        

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