my story

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Registered: 12-29-2006
my story
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Fri, 12-29-2006 - 9:58pm
Hi,
I'm glad I have found this website because I am feeling very alone.
I recently experienced a very horrible situation at my job that caused a severe Anxiety attack that put me in the hospital. About 8 months ago I reported my Supervisor to my HR department after she verbally attacked me. Since then she has made my life at work a living hell. Last month she threatened me and tried to force me out of the company with personal money. The situation became worse and worse for approx. 2 weeks when I finally had the opportunity to report her again to the VP as well as HR. Needless to say she retaliated again by calling me a liar and actually having the nerve to discriminate towards me right in front of a HR representive! I suffered the attack right there at the job and was taken off to the emergency room where they medicated me and watched me for a few hours. Ever since this incident on 12/1 I have not been the same. Every day I cry and shake. I am re-living this nightmare all day. I wake myself up in the middle of the night with nightmares and trying to catch my breathe. My stomach hurts everyday and I have headaches. Everyday I have to force myself to even brush my teeth. This Christmas was so depressing for me, I feel bad for my Husband and Son because they see me like this.
I started to take Lexapro last week and my Doctor also prescribed Xanax at night. I am not sure if the medication is helping me yet since the only change I see so far is in my appetite (less of) and being more tired than usual.
Next week I will start therapy to hopefully help me get through this. I have never experienced anxiety or depression before in my life and I never would imagine that something like this could actually rock my world and change everything.
I have been a dedicated employee to this company for 6 years, I have so many friends there that its been hard to accept. I have been avoiding all of their calls and emails, I can't speak to them about this , its still too hard.

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Registered: 12-29-2006
In reply to: cc714
Fri, 01-05-2007 - 3:16pm

Hi Sheri Ann,e
I have no idea what I will do as far as work goes. I have been working for so many years that this is really the first time in I don't know how long that I have been out of work. I feel like I have given up so much for my career and for what?, this? Maybe its time I try something different too. I've dealt with alot of guilt going back to work so soon after my son was born and leaving him for business trips. I think I need to start to give back to my family what I was not able to give them when I was working. Hopefully I can resolve my claim soon and start to receive some pay while I am out.
Can I ask, are you seeing a psychologist?, I am confused on the differences between the types of therapists.

Talk to you soon!
CC

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Registered: 03-11-2004
In reply to: cc714
Fri, 01-05-2007 - 5:11pm
 

 


 



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Registered: 03-22-2003
In reply to: cc714
Fri, 01-05-2007 - 7:17pm

I see a therapist, he's a social worker.

Sheri Ann

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Registered: 12-29-2006
In reply to: cc714
Fri, 01-05-2007 - 7:55pm

Hi Again,
the therapist I saw this week has referred me to a psychologist, he feels that this Woman would be really good for me. I made contact with her and she seems very nice already but unfortuntaley she does not accept our insurance but she said she would work with me.

Funny that you live in NC, anywhere near Raleigh? I have a sister who just moved there over the summer with her Family. She is actually up this week visiting, I will see them tomorrow. Its been a crazy past month , my Mother was in the hospital for a month and just came home last weekend. Yesterday I found out my other sister has a lump in her breast and is going in for a biopsy next week. Earlier this week I was food shopping and had an anxiety attack in the grocery store, I had to leave immediately, I just left my cart full and everything. I was so embarrassed that when I calmed down in my car and drove to another grocery store and started all over again!

Hopefully someday I will be normal again!

Take Care!!
CC

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Registered: 04-18-2003
In reply to: cc714
Fri, 01-05-2007 - 10:47pm

Don't feel bad about the grocery store, I've done it many, many times over the years ;)

Sheri Ann

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Registered: 12-29-2006
In reply to: cc714
Mon, 01-08-2007 - 8:20pm

that's funny that you mentioned about saving money, I realized that today as well when I walked out of Target spending about 1/3 of what I usually do, all I could think about was getting in and out of there as quickly as possible before I had another attack. ,,,,I guess that's the one plus about all of this!

Take Care!
CC

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