Fading away....
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Fading away....
| Sun, 12-31-2006 - 6:05pm |
My anxiety hasn't been so bad lately. I guess my only issues lately could be attributed to depression... and I'm not really sure I'd even call it that. I just look at myself lately and I feel like I don't know who I am anymore.
Not even that but that I just feel like there isn't even anyone there to know.


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(((Heather)))
That does sound like depression to me; have you thought about seeking help/counseling for depression? 'Tis also the season for the winter blues.
It's too bad that your friend didn't write back, but some people are also just poor communicators. (I have a brother that has written me like once in 3 years) I wish I could offer more help, but you have friends and support here.
Hugs,
Dee
Heather I have to agree with Dee it sounds like depression. Have you seen a doctor for his/her opinion. I know sometime the depression hits me so hard I feel exactly as you have explained. I'll even look in a mirror and not know who I am anymore. It's a very scary experiance. Maybe talking with a therapist could help if you don't already. Sometimes that impartial person can see something we are totally missing or unaware of.
Keitha
I go to therapy for an hour a week. And just recently went to my dr and had the doseage of my zoloft increased.
That's a pretty popular saying, Heather. I read it on another board today. I don't put much store in fortune cookies, but the actual saying rings true to anyone who tries to please others. You need to put yourself first sometimes. Especially if you are depended upon by others. If you're feeling stressed, then *me* time is essential. Making changes in our lives is very popular this time of year;) Make a list of things you'd like to change. Pick the most urgent, then make a plan as to how you can arrive @ them.
As for depression, that's possible. However, you need to talk with a professional & get some guidance for your next step. Is a med change necessary? Let them be the judge.
I am hoping this is a temporary situation for you. That a New Year & a clean slate is all you'll need to make a turn around. You have done so well in coping with anxiety. You have strength & resolve but are a little short on purpose. It's easy to lose sight of it, but also easy to get it back! Good luck & wishing you the bestest New Year ever! (((hugs))) jan
It seems like a neverending cycle doesn't it, you feel empty, try to reach out, people don't seem to respond, so you feel even emptier and on and on it goes. I have found that people don't often know HOW to deal with another's sadness or feel they shouldn't get involved. That is sad in itself, the world has forgotten the art of communication and compassion, but don't lose hope, it doesn't mean they don't still care for you.
I agree with what the others have said, give your meds a chance to work. Some take longer than others to really kick in.
Have you tried journaling? Writing down your feelings and the things in your life can help get those feelings OUT of you, sort of like purging your soul onto paper. It's helped me, cuz even if there's NO ONE to talk to, I can write my feelings down in this book and it makes me feel better. Something else I do is at the end of every page, write SOMETHING postive about myself.
Blessings,
Amy
Heather, just wanted to send P&PTs your way!
Sheri Ann
today was a little better. There are a lot of family issues going on. Maybe I'll talk about that later.
I did manage to connect to an old friend via email, someone I grew up with, who was even in my wedding. And told her about what i am going through, only to find out that she too has gone through a lot of the same issues!! So that has helped being able to talk to her. i have another friend, that I talk to via the internet that I recently "reconnected" with, that I really bared it all to, and I kind of freaked out when I didn't hear back from him right away thinking that I freaked him or that he wasn't going to get back to me, or any number of those thoughts that start spinning when we let our minds run. But I heard back from him today and things are fine. :)
i have no real words of wisdom, but wanted to offer my support and let you know that you are not alone.
It sounds like you're depressed. I know anxiety and depression have really done a number on my self confidence in the past. You second guess yourself on everything, it's a terrible feeling.
I hope you are able to break out of this cycle of despair. From reading your profile it sounds like you have a lot of good things in your life to be thankful for. I know it's not as easy as looking on the bright side, but like my dh told me when I was at my lowest with my anxiety and panic disorder "Just fake it. Pretend you're normal." Sometimes that's all you can do is go through the motions, keep making yourself get out there and live your life.