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Wed, 01-10-2007 - 5:51pm

We had a very uncomfortable staff meeting this afternoon. I don't know why everyone was so prickly. Oh, wait a minute. I do! Could it be because the boss is making everyone (except the pet, naturally) edgy and miserable?


Here it is January, and we were already told that we would have to work both Christmas Eve AND New Year's Eve. I had suspected as much, but come on, why spoil the holidays for us a year in advance? KWIM?


I really, really, hope she was not referring to me--but she mentioned we need to cut back on personal internet and phone use. I hardly ever talk on the phone, but I *do* get very bored and post in IV boards off and on during the day. I'm discreet, I get my work done, etc. But I'm all paranoid now that there's some sort of tracker on my computer or that someone snitched on me or something.


She's scaling back the weekly group meetings in lieu of weekly individual meetings. Nothing sends my stomach dropping to the floor like a one-on-one meeting with a boss. Any boss. Doesn't matter what it's for--I always go in convinced I'm in trouble for something or other.


Oh, and there's a snafu with my insurance. There's 2 sessions from back in October that the practice conglomerate is saying the insurance didn't pay for and that if they don't pay within the next 30 days, I'll be charged.


Want to know what my biggest anxiety trigger is? Money issues. Any time there's a discrepancy or mistake or anything with a bill or company that I have to fix--anything like that sends me into a tailspin. Even if it's something where the company has made a mistake, I panic about having to call and straighten it out. Especially about things having to do with insurance. There have been times when I've paid (or overpaid) things unnecessarily just so I wouldn't have to deal with customer service. But this $180 that I'm looking at now with this insurance thing is a lot of money for me, and I know I have to deal with it.


I'm still sick with this horrible cold. I literally got maybe an hour of sleep last night. I was up all night coughing, despite taking cough medicine. I had to sleep sitting up propped against pillows. A couple of hours ago, I snuck out to the parking lot to sleep in my car for 15 minutes because I kept falling asleep at my desk. I feel bad, there's no groceries at my house, my cat's litter box needs changing, the kitchen garbage can is full, I'm starving right now, my apartment looks like it's been ransacked, and the boss said today at the meeting that overtime is mandatory for the remainder of January.


I do have a session tomorrow--finally. Not a moment too soon, eh?


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Registered: 03-25-2003
In reply to: asc2001
Wed, 01-10-2007 - 6:09pm

It never rains, it pours, doesn't it? I'm sure all this negative stuff is just exacerbated by the fact that you don't feel well. I hope you get some rest tonight!

BTW, I used to be in IT and if anyone with administrator rights wants to, they can see what you're doing on the internet or email at work. So be forewarned. Honestly most IT people these days are too busy to worry about who's visiting what web site, but there are unscrupolous people who just like to snoop, and it sounds like your boss may be one of them. Better safe than sorry.

I can't believe your boss is telling you have to work holidays a year in advance. ?!? It's small comfort, but when someone spends that much time and effort making other people miserable, you can't help but think they must have a pretty messed up life.

Take care, and get better soon.

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Registered: 03-11-2004
In reply to: asc2001
Wed, 01-10-2007 - 7:29pm

"Thank goodness for that session" is about right, Laura! You need it!


I'm sorry knowing your schedule this early is stressful.

 

 


 



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Registered: 07-28-2004
In reply to: asc2001
Thu, 01-11-2007 - 3:28pm

(((Laura)))

Most likely it was a general message, but as mentioned, the technology is out there to look at your computer stuff at work.

When I read your message...my first devious thought was for you to start emailing/posting stuff from work all about how you've seen the light & how completely wonderful your boss is and how much you just Looooove...your job and your coworkers....then wait and see if there's any detectable response/change in their behavior. Or accidentally leave something showing on your computer screen that you want them to see/report. LOL

I'm sorry you are still feeling sick. I hate dragging through the day when I'm exhausted or not feeling well. Mainly I've been exhausted and anxious this week.

Hugs,
Dee

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Registered: 10-10-2006
In reply to: asc2001
Fri, 01-12-2007 - 7:12pm
can you call a friend? someone who can come over and help out with a few things.hang in there.this won't last.
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Registered: 03-22-2003
In reply to: asc2001
Fri, 01-12-2007 - 10:18pm

ITA about the meeting with the boss - yuk!

Sheri Ann