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| Thu, 01-11-2007 - 6:31pm |
Hello everyone.
I'm having a really hard time right now ladies. I need some support again!! I'm so fed up with this anxiety and panic, it's driving me nuts! I have been good lately, and have stayed away from the alcohol. I'm finding it very difficult to cope with this. I feel so alone inside, and I just want it to stop. A few months ago I was ok, panic wise. My life was on track mostly, except for the fact that I was a little depressed, but I was coping with that way better than this!
I had two cups of tea last night, and afterwards my hands were shaking, I could feel my heart beating and my chest was tight. I started having trouble breathing then I got dizzy. I just thought to myself, "Oh no, here comes another one!!" So I tried to wait it out for a few minutes to see if it would go away. Nope. I went and got my purse and took a clonazepam. I was so angry that I had to take a pill to stop these feelings.
Then tonight, I had 3 panic attacks in an hour. I was at my parents house, and was ready to bolt! I thought, what are my parents going to think, I've been here an hour because I have a cold and wanted to get away from everyone else and get some sleep, so I came here. Then I just get up and leave? Even if I left here, I'm not getting away from my anxiety, but in my mind I think that being here is causing it. It is the surroundings. I hate this.
So I decided to come on here and look for some help. Before I took 20mg's of Paxil, and my doctor changed it because I had lack of energy and a little depression. Then I tried a different medication and my anxiety was unbearable. She then switched me to 30mg's of Paxil. Well, I'm not much better. I am than I was on the new med, but worse than I was before. Can increasing your med's dosage cause more panic?
I just want this to stop. I want a normal life. By the looks of things, I am going to have to suffer with this for the rest of my life. That makes me feel like I could be sick. Maybe I'm not strong enough.
What does everyone do when they think that they can't take anymore anxiety? What do you do when you get down on yourself about the disorder? How do you get back into the swing of things?
I'm so upset right now. :-(
Amy

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You are NOT crazy, wacko or anything else you can think of;) You WON'T go crazy, wacko or anything else you can think of;) These are common fears & have been discussed many times on the board. It is part & parcel of the stress & anxiety you're feeling & the thinking that can be a bit irrational @ times. Don't give it any more power than it already has. Accept this as something you needn't control or fight against. Allow it to pass through you or over you. Maybe that's contributing to some of
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