Hi everyone

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Registered: 06-16-2004
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Sat, 01-13-2007 - 10:21pm

Thanks for the P&PT when Lance died. It's been two weeks and I am surviving. It's not easy though.


Through all this, my anxiety has not subsided. I got my Zoloft upped to 150 mg but I swear this obsessiveness is not going away. I really feel that it is affecting how I grieve for Lance. I feel more focused on that most of the time. So I thought I had breast cancer as you all know. At my last appt two weeks ago, the dr did another breast examination(this is like the 6th one I have had since August) and she felt nothing. Said she would send me for another test(that I already have had)but after that she won't send me anymore because it is showing nothing. Then I get pain between my breasts-think I have costochondritis or am having a heart attack. Tonight I "thought" I felt a lump in my neck, had

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Registered: 03-11-2004
In reply to: lneonkia
Sat, 01-13-2007 - 11:47pm

Once again, I want to tell you how sorry I am about Lance. I know this is a tough time for you. Grieving doesn't follow the book. We all grieve in our own way & time. It's understandable that your anxiety & fears of physical illness have increased. Please be patient with yourself. Don't allow yourself to be pressured by these thoughts. Even folks without a diagnosed anxiety disorder have similiar fears after a

 

 


 



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Registered: 06-16-2004
In reply to: lneonkia
Sun, 01-14-2007 - 8:42am

Thanks. I didn't know they had a board like that here. I'm going to go check it out.


Tina

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Registered: 09-16-2005
In reply to: lneonkia
Sun, 01-14-2007 - 9:18am

Tina I wish I could make your hurt and worries just dissapear. But I can't. I do agree with Jan that having someone to talk to right now might be a good idea. My prayers are with you and yours. Take care of yourself and keep us informed of how you are doing we worry about you.

Keitha

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Registered: 03-22-2003
In reply to: lneonkia
Sun, 01-14-2007 - 4:50pm

(((Tina))) I am so happy you stopped by!

Sheri Ann

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Registered: 03-25-2003
In reply to: lneonkia
Sun, 01-14-2007 - 6:25pm
I am so sorry for your loss. Don't worry about what you *should* be thinking about. Everyone deals with loss differently. Do whatever feels right to get you through the day. We're here for you. Take care.
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Registered: 03-22-2003
In reply to: lneonkia
Tue, 03-06-2007 - 4:23pm

Hey, Tina!

Sheri Ann

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Registered: 06-16-2004
In reply to: lneonkia
Tue, 03-06-2007 - 9:21pm

I'm okay. My anxiety seems better. I think it has a lot to do with I just don't have the energy to worry. I am too busy grieving.


Thanks for asking. I still lurk!

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Registered: 03-22-2003
In reply to: lneonkia
Wed, 03-07-2007 - 12:30pm

With Lance's birthday just a couple of days away, I imagine this is a bad time for you.

Sheri Ann

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Registered: 02-19-2007
In reply to: lneonkia
Wed, 03-07-2007 - 3:29pm
So very sorry for your loss. Sending thoughts and prayers your way - there's no right or wrong way to go through your grief, but you're in a good place on this board because everyone here is so supportive. Take care! Hugs, AJ