Anxiety is high

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Anxiety is high
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Mon, 01-15-2007 - 10:43am
Well last night I had trouble falling asleep, the few nights before that have been better since I have been taking medicine in the day also. Ummm, I am anxious about what this week leads to. I will have to continue this battle with my case worker, will have to go to school, have to be home some days for my brother when he gets home. To some people these things may seem small, but as alot of people know though, there is more behind the curtains.
You know, know that my sexual abuse counsellor is leaving, I feel myself thinking about what has happened and feel more edgy. See... This is what the weekdays mean to me now. Before it was the weekends that drove me nuts, now its opposit.
At night I feel weak, I curl up in a ball under my covered and am on the verge of crying, sometimes I get a tear or two, but nothing more. Sometimes it feels like my heart aches.
Kristina (thanks for letting me vent a little before school)

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Mon, 01-15-2007 - 11:12am

(((Kristina))))

Can you get started with another counselor before yours leaves? Would that help? I hope your day at school is going well.

Hugs,
Dee

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Mon, 01-15-2007 - 12:27pm

You are such a strong person, you will get through this. I know you know that but it's still so hard when you're in the midst of it right?

How about writing down all the things you have to do, then potential obstacles that may cause you to go into anxiety mode, and then some techniques that might help deal with it?

I know when my anxiety was at its highest I had to write down a daily schedule, hour by hour, to keep me focused on the tasks at hand. It kept me from just retreating altogether.

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Mon, 01-15-2007 - 1:29pm

(((Kristina))) Sorry to hear about how you're feeling): I think that for me, living a day @ a time works the best. If I looked @ the whole week coming up, I would feel overwhelmed as you do. Try to live in the *here & now.* Make a list of things you want to accomplish each day & tick them off as you complete the tasks. If you're tired & out of sorts & can't complete the list, let it go. Forgive yourself. Many days we fall short of our goals. But, you are still important & worthwhile. We are NOT defined by our work.


Find out what counselors are available to you. If you feel there will be a confrontation, can you take someone along with you? Will it help to write your thoughts down & carry them along to give you some calmness & keep you on track?


My last questions, are you doing enough for YOU? Are you engaged in activities that you enjoy? Do you connect with family & friends? Can you get out to a movie or just have coffee with someone? Sometimes that shot in the arm is all we need to help us out of these slumps that can easily take over. You CAN do this! Have a great day @ school. Keep in touch! jan

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Mon, 01-15-2007 - 4:11pm

hi kristina,


i have no great words of wisdom but wanted to say hi and offer my support.


i can relate to having super high anxiety:(


keep us posted on how you are doing.

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Mon, 01-15-2007 - 8:16pm
Dee,
Today didn't go that well, (I will write about that in a new post). I did get to see my counselor, but it seems I will be unable to find a new one before she goes. I am trying to gather papers so I can get free sessions from Victims Services.

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Mon, 01-15-2007 - 8:18pm
I really think I am going to take your suggestion to heart. The idea of writing everything down may help me since as it is I do feel the extreme need to make lists.
Thank you for sharing :)

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Mon, 01-15-2007 - 8:25pm
Like I wrote to Dee, I am looking into counselors and such. I think your idea of the here and now may be best for me because I am in such an anxious, angry mode.
Thank you/

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Mon, 01-15-2007 - 8:32pm
Its okay that you don't have any advice or stuff like that, I do appreciate the thought behind the post. Also, I love the pics of your boys.

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Mon, 01-15-2007 - 9:06pm

I am glad you are seeking out other means of therapy if a therapist isn't available to you.

Sheri Ann