good news, but anxiety provoking
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good news, but anxiety provoking
| Wed, 01-17-2007 - 1:55am |
Well today I stayed home from school because yesterday had been so hard on me. For the most part I was productive, I cleaned my guinea pigs houses, vaccumed the living room and made some important calls. These aren't just regular calls, calls that make your heart go in your throat and you have to speak clearly and make sense.
I found out I am entitled to at least 12 paid sessions with a therapist regarding my trauma history. That is very good news to me because my trauma worker is leaving and there is a huge waiting list elsewhere. So with me going to someone that is paid for, well I can almost guarantee a good resault, at least that is what I hope for.
I realize that some of the stuff I write about should go on the Sexual Healing board, but I feel my anxiety problems are more then just what has happened to me.
So I have been battling this migraine for the past 4 hours, I have taken tylenol and advil, lay still, and have an ice pack on my head. Nothing is really working. I guess it might have something to due with my stress and anxiety.
Can you tell me if you've ever heard about this? Last time I saw my doctor for disability papers, she mentioned a disorder which makes sense but doesn't. She said that when I get anxious or depressed it progresses into physical things??? Very confused with this, and worried that it will sound like those people on tv thinking something is always wrong when its not. Please realize that my sharing this little bit of info is really hard for me.
Sometimes I get scared I am like my grandma. We weren't blood related, but she was there until I was about 13. I remember her as a fun grandma when I was little, I used to go to her house, watch Wheel of Fortune and eat jello and ice cream. When I was about 5, she had a routine surgery for her eye befor her husband died and somehow it made her nuts. She had to get hospitalized and from then on she was never the same. It was always the same. She was very demanding to the grown ups, but at the same time kept care of us kids. Then when I was about 12 things started to really change. I don't know if it had to do with me or what, I just know we got into some really big fights. Sometimes I worry I am like her. I can't have a problem with my eye and say it out loud because I worry I'll sound like her.
Sometimes I am scared about what these labels people put on me really mean. I have heard PTSD, OCD, Anxiety, Depression, (the new one), Borderline personality disorder. Like I am seriously feeling like I am having an identity crisis!!! My doctor also said that I halucinate, that does NOT sound good to me!!!!!!!!
Right now I am freaked out, but tired to.
I am really wondering, have I found the right board???????
I found out I am entitled to at least 12 paid sessions with a therapist regarding my trauma history. That is very good news to me because my trauma worker is leaving and there is a huge waiting list elsewhere. So with me going to someone that is paid for, well I can almost guarantee a good resault, at least that is what I hope for.
I realize that some of the stuff I write about should go on the Sexual Healing board, but I feel my anxiety problems are more then just what has happened to me.
So I have been battling this migraine for the past 4 hours, I have taken tylenol and advil, lay still, and have an ice pack on my head. Nothing is really working. I guess it might have something to due with my stress and anxiety.
Can you tell me if you've ever heard about this? Last time I saw my doctor for disability papers, she mentioned a disorder which makes sense but doesn't. She said that when I get anxious or depressed it progresses into physical things??? Very confused with this, and worried that it will sound like those people on tv thinking something is always wrong when its not. Please realize that my sharing this little bit of info is really hard for me.
Sometimes I get scared I am like my grandma. We weren't blood related, but she was there until I was about 13. I remember her as a fun grandma when I was little, I used to go to her house, watch Wheel of Fortune and eat jello and ice cream. When I was about 5, she had a routine surgery for her eye befor her husband died and somehow it made her nuts. She had to get hospitalized and from then on she was never the same. It was always the same. She was very demanding to the grown ups, but at the same time kept care of us kids. Then when I was about 12 things started to really change. I don't know if it had to do with me or what, I just know we got into some really big fights. Sometimes I worry I am like her. I can't have a problem with my eye and say it out loud because I worry I'll sound like her.
Sometimes I am scared about what these labels people put on me really mean. I have heard PTSD, OCD, Anxiety, Depression, (the new one), Borderline personality disorder. Like I am seriously feeling like I am having an identity crisis!!! My doctor also said that I halucinate, that does NOT sound good to me!!!!!!!!
Right now I am freaked out, but tired to.
I am really wondering, have I found the right board???????


That's great news about the
Hi there! It sounds like you've been really busy, LOL. I used to have guinea pigs, but HATED cleaning out their cages and stuff. It bites to have to make THOSE kind of phone calls, but I reckon we all have to make them at one time or another. It's great that you got your sessions paid for, I know that takes a load off your mind for sure.
I can really relate with you on taking on some of those worries that happened with your grandma, even though you weren't blood related. I wasn't blood related to my grandfather, he was blind and any time I would have something wrong with my eyes, I would worry that I was going blind. My brother died of cancer when he was only 13 and I know in my heart how really RARE that is, but I always fear that I will get it too. I just have to remind myself that I am healthy and I don't have cancer or I'm not blind and that everything is ok. I used to get the migraines from time to time and I would get the auras which scare me, cuz I have trouble seeing when I get them. It turned out to be hormonal, due to the birth control pill. I took the pill years ago. But it's truly a PAIN in the neck, LOL.
I think you HAVE found the right board. As it was pointed out to me, there are alot of other boards that can help, but this one is really great to discuss all your anxiety issues and finding people who understand and will listen.
We are all here for a reason, we all in some way or another have depression and/or anxiety problems.
I hope you like here :)
Many blessings,
Amy
My neck hurts, I get occular migraines, allergies, stomach pains,
pains in my legs and stomach!! Just to name a FEW! LOL
NO YOU ARE NOT A HYPOCHANDRIAC!!!! My doc told me that this is reactions
to stress and anxiety! It is so true how else can you explain the coming
and going so quickly of these symptoms????
YOU ARE NOT YOUR GRANDMOTHER! YOU ARE YOU!!! Who knows what else went on
with your Gramma before she got so sick???!!!
I was sexually abused and have panic disorder----- which came first WHO KNOWS!!
WHO CARES!! I just try to make my life better every day!
I am glad you are going to see a GOOD DOCTOR- I HOPE!!!
Makes all the difference! Let us know how it goes!! HUGS! Judy
Ready I think you've found the right board if for no other reason we've most of us been there in everyone of the things you've mentioned. We're also a loving and caring board that cares what happens to you and carrys about your feelings and thoughts.
Check out the other boards but I think you'll be back to us before you realize it. I've checked them all out as I've so many dx's I've lost track of them. There has only been one other board aside from this one I feel I really fit into.
Keep in touch with us and keep us informed as to how you are doing we do care.
Keitha
This is definitely the right board for the anxiety you are experiencing!
Sheri Ann