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| Sat, 01-20-2007 - 3:21pm |
Hi, my name is Ali, I live in a beautiful home with my amazing husband and our yellow lab marley, and our cat david bowie. We are both teachers, and are in our mid-twenties. We got married this past July and had a wonderful time. HOWEVER, the anxiety that i thought would go away right after the wedding was over did not go away. It just got worse. You see, in May of 05 a very dear friend of mine that i have known since we were 2 years old, committed suicide after a long struggle with bipolar disorder. This was extremely traumatizing to me. This is when my panic attacks started. My doctor prescribed me Ativan, which I have been taking ever since to combat random anxiety attacks that i have for what seems like no reason. I feel like if there is something that i could or should be controlling (like the cleanliness of my home---we are doing renovations so it feels like it is never truely as peaceful as i would like it to be, at least not yet) i just freak out. I get really angry really fast and start to cry and feel naseated. my husband thinks that i should easily be able to control this, which obviously i can not. the only was i can is to take an ativan, which is now being prescribed to be at 2mgs a pill, it started at only .5mg a pill. I feel alone and anxious and depressed at the same time but i can pin point what is causing it! I love my job, i have a wonderful family and husband, my friends are great, i am healthy and so is my family. Why do i feel so hopeless, helpless, and sad??? I also get very panicky about dusting, i am obsessive about it and it physically bothers me when i see dust on something, also, i have to change my bed sheets everyday and put on clean ones because it makes me grossed out to sleep on the same sheets two nights in a row. This also drives my husband nuts. I am totally crazy? Does anyone out there feel the same way???
PLEASE HELP ME!

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Hello & welcome to our caring community. What you have described is very distressing. Many of us have had similiar, if not the same experiences. You are NOT alone! The stress of the wedding & the death of a friend are known triggers of anxiety disorders. Any major life changes, illness, traumas or loss can contribute. I had a severe spell of anxiety after the birth of my second daughter. Others were triggered by illness, surgery, accidents,
Hi & welcome!!
Sheri Ann
hi there,
i have no great words of wisdom, but wanted to say hi and offer my support.
i can totally relate to the cleaning thing...i get seriously upset when things are messy...if i see dust, i get soooo upset!
just wanted to let you know you are not alone.
Ali..you are not alone and not crazy-))
Hi Amy,
Thank you so much for your support! I think that I am absolutely having control issues, although I am not an unhappy person at all! I am going to take the advise that several people have given me and see a psychiatrist. My Ativan prescription was given to me by my family practice doctor. I do see a therapist but she can not prescribe me meds. Do you think that going on a preventative antidepressant like Zoloft or Lexapro helps with anxiety?
ps- I saw the banner that says you love someone with Autism.. does your son have autism (if you dont mind me asking)
I am an autism teacher and I am working on getting my masters to be certified in ABA. I have a true passion for individuals with Autism.
Thanks again for your support-
Ali
Thanks so much for your support
I think that I absolutely have control issues; what you've said makes a lot of sense! I already see a therapist once a week, but she can not prescribe me anything, and my Ativan was given to be by my family practice doctor. What are the benefits of seeing a psychiatrist?
Thanks,
Ali
Hi and Thank you so much for your support
Its nice to know that I am not crazy! and that there are lots of other women willing to support me out there, and who are going through the same thing. It makes me feel much less alone.
ps your boys are adorable!
Ali
to your feelings and actions. Seeing a psychiatrist will help with
your diagnosis!! AND your treatment! I would also like to add my 2---where is the
cents sign!!! I think you may have PTSD post traumatic stress disoder--
which is similiar to panic disoder but brought on by trauma! Your friend's
death was the trauma I refer to. My neice committed suicide last year and I
was devastated since I was her primary caretaker! All I know is she is not
suffering anymore!! We all react to things differently so your control issues
are new??? I have always needed to feel in control since I never had any as a
child! Cleaning soooooothes the soul!! BUT there is a healthy limit!!
God Bless and let us know how you are doing! Judy
A psychiatrist specializes in mental health meds.
Sheri Ann
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