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| Sat, 01-20-2007 - 3:21pm |
Hi, my name is Ali, I live in a beautiful home with my amazing husband and our yellow lab marley, and our cat david bowie. We are both teachers, and are in our mid-twenties. We got married this past July and had a wonderful time. HOWEVER, the anxiety that i thought would go away right after the wedding was over did not go away. It just got worse. You see, in May of 05 a very dear friend of mine that i have known since we were 2 years old, committed suicide after a long struggle with bipolar disorder. This was extremely traumatizing to me. This is when my panic attacks started. My doctor prescribed me Ativan, which I have been taking ever since to combat random anxiety attacks that i have for what seems like no reason. I feel like if there is something that i could or should be controlling (like the cleanliness of my home---we are doing renovations so it feels like it is never truely as peaceful as i would like it to be, at least not yet) i just freak out. I get really angry really fast and start to cry and feel naseated. my husband thinks that i should easily be able to control this, which obviously i can not. the only was i can is to take an ativan, which is now being prescribed to be at 2mgs a pill, it started at only .5mg a pill. I feel alone and anxious and depressed at the same time but i can pin point what is causing it! I love my job, i have a wonderful family and husband, my friends are great, i am healthy and so is my family. Why do i feel so hopeless, helpless, and sad??? I also get very panicky about dusting, i am obsessive about it and it physically bothers me when i see dust on something, also, i have to change my bed sheets everyday and put on clean ones because it makes me grossed out to sleep on the same sheets two nights in a row. This also drives my husband nuts. I am totally crazy? Does anyone out there feel the same way???
PLEASE HELP ME!

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Hi Ali,
It's actually my younger sister, Mickey, who was severe Autism.
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