Feeling very anxious
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| Sat, 01-20-2007 - 10:26pm |
Hi all
It has been awhile since I posted here. I started seeing & sleeping w/ somoen. AI don't regret having sex as soon as I did, but I made a mistake---well a couple. One) I gave him mixed messages & I yold him I was sorry...ok done with that one. 2) Just before we started getting "crazY' I asked for clarification about whom he dated in '06 (he had told me twice before I guess I couldn't keep it straight). The anxiety just made me have a memory lapse. Anyway, I apologized but now I am stuck with the feeling I blew another relationship. Tonight he's heading over to his friend's home & having a beer & I think he will end up talking about what happenned btwn us. I feel like an Fng freak. I texted message him earlier & then spoke to him after he texted message me back so if he really wanted to blow me off I think he would.
Anyway, this has all caused me a lot of anxiety.

I wouldn't overthink it, as Amy said.
Sheri Ann
Please try to be a little easier on yourself. I know we tend to be our own internal critics about what we say and do, but often times seems huge and awful in our minds, isn't even a blip on other peoples' radars. As the old saying goes, "Don't go borrowing trouble." If you guys worked out the problem you were having and talked later, I'm sure it's fine.
Amy's right about the beginning of relationships. It is so stressful, those first few weeks/months, before you both get comfortable to really open up with each other. You just don't know what the other person is really thinking/feeling, or if they feel the same about you as you do about them. So confusing and nerve wrecking sometimes. But you can get through it! Just be patient, and don't count yourself out before you really get going.
Well all of you were right until I feel like I blew it again. I think I texted him 2 much last night after he did in fact call me & I did call this morning & left a brief message saying thta I didn't meant o text him so much but that Americal Idol was so funny. My phone rang as I was leaving the message so I said I had to go.
I haven't heard from him at all day so I just thre my cell phone in the back of my car so I would stop looking.
I really appreciate your kind words.
I have gone to CODA in the past & you'd think with all the therapy & the books, I would learn to control myself better...but NOoooooooooooooo. I am still a very needy person.
ARRRGGG.
Anyway, I am glad I found this board & hope to post better news next time around. We women tend to really overthink new relationships...well at least I do.