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| Mon, 01-22-2007 - 4:27pm |
Ladies, please forgive me for the ranting and raving I'm about to do. I feel like this is the best place for me to do it. I have suffered anxiety/depression for 8 years now. I've been on paxil for 7 months and was doing really well. A couple of weeks ago, I had anxiety/depression issues (I have no idea what the trigger was this time) and took some Ativan. It helped. I'm starting to feel anxious again and all I want to do is sleep. I'm not having full blown attacks (thankfully) but it is enough to be annoying and distracting. I've been on several drugs at different doses and been to a few different counselors. I went to my primary doc last week to have my hormones/thyroid checked and everything came back normal. I truly wish there was a real cure for anxiety and depression. I'm sick of fighting it and want an easy way out!
Thank you for your kindness,
Candace

candace,
when/if you find that easy way out you let me know!
Unfortunately, there is no easy way, we all wish there was.
Sheri Ann
Thank you, you are right. I feel much better now after taking a break and breathing slowly. I don't know why I feel guilty taking Ativan, it is such a life saver. I'm just going to have to kick that thought to the curb and take it as needed. Actually, my doc was very surprised that I hadn't taken a single ativan in almost 4 months. That should be a sign to me that it is okay!
I wish I could join the chats, but for some reason, my computer at home doesn't work there. :(
Thanks again,
Candace
P.S., I'm still hoping for a miracle cure!!
I can relate to having similiar feelings. It took me many years before I was *ok* with taking the meds. I remind myself that we have a chemical imbalance. Much like diabetics who must take insulin everyday, we may have to take meds to keep us centered. I don't like one bit that it might be forever. But, I want to live a good life, Candace. I want you to have a good life, too.
Be kind to yourself. You're doing all the right things. You WILL get back on track. It seems to take too long & is so hard for us): Keep in touch. (((hugs))) jan
the denial! If we have allergies we take the meds but with
anxiety somehow we feel we NEED TO BE STRONG AND FIGHT IT!!!
When I get into this kind of thinking I am in trouble----
I remind myself of how bad it was when I had agoraphobia and then
the meds look just fine!!! Take care and remember this mood will pass! Judy
I have only been dealing with this for a few months so I guess I can relate to only a little bit of what you're going through. I can see how frustrated you would get. I know I got a lot worse on a couple of the drugs before I got better. It was hard, but my dh would just say "Nothing lasts forever, you'll get through this."
I wish there was an easy way out too. My dh has fought depression for years, and when he's in a down cycle it is so hard for all of us. But he is so much better than he was 5 or 10 years ago. It's hard to look at the big picture when you're in the middle of it.
Candace, have you had your adrenal glands tested? That is also a hormone test, but they usually do it with saliva...I recently found out I have extreme adrenal fatigue that was leading to adrenal burnout and was contributing to alot of my anxiety, and now with being on the stuff for my adrenals and the Xanax im doing much better....try to find a naturopath doctor lots of times they are more receptive to what you know about your body...because mine was the only one who could figure out the medical stuff after my doctors kept telling me everything was okay. But do some research online about the adrenals, and think about having that test done!!! Big hugs and keep your chin up, and seriously consider that test...thos just being a little bit off can send you for a tailspin trust me lol....Good luck!!
Krista