Reeling thoughts...

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Registered: 12-27-2006
Reeling thoughts...
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Thu, 01-25-2007 - 7:41am

I have been up since 4:30 am because the baby woke up, then after he got put back down, I started just thinking about stuff. In particular, my husband and I have a friend who travels with us. His wife has alot of self esteem issues and is very jealous of other women when it comes to her husband. She is suspicious of me and there's no reason for her to be. I had a thought last night that she might start traveling with us and I just started panicking. She has been throwing a fit about not being able to go. I DON'T want her with us. I don't like her. I can't be friends with someone and feel at ease when I feel like someone is accusing me of something. I didn't sleep anymore, I just kept thinking about it and obsessing over it. I think another part of the reason that I'm so freaked out is that I started my period this morning, so it could be a hormonal thing. I just don't know what to do when I can't sleep like that. My anxiety seems SOOOO much worse at night. She has been to our house once and my husband and her husband went outside, and I simply followed my husband out, from behind me I hear her say, "A pretty girl alone with MY husband? I don't think so!" I didn't say anything, but kept on walking out, but I just knew from that point on that I wouldn't get along with her. Like GEEZE, what was I gonna do, just jump her husband right in front of God and everyone? I've told her that there is NOTHING going on and she realizes that her fears are all her own, but all that aside, I don't want her around and honestly neither do any of our other friends. I'm not a mean person, but there are just certain people that one can't get along with, I'm nice and cordial to her, but I don't consider her to be my friend.
I'm exhausted and want to go back to sleep, but I don't know if I can. I've tried my relaxation music, lavender oil, finally getting up and getting busy, and now I'm resorting to drinking. It's just that I'm jumpy and these thoughts didn't help. I don't let any PERSON affect me like this, but it's just the thoughts that got me panicked. I really doubt she will start traveling with us, cuz in all reality there's just no room for her and all the people that we travel with are involved in our buisness, we don't have "extra" people along, it just makes traveling harder.

Edited 1/25/2007 7:49 am ET by glamfatale




Edited 1/25/2007 7:49 am ET by glamfatale
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Thu, 01-25-2007 - 10:46am

(((Amy))) WOW! I am sorry to hear that. If you're anything like the rest of us on the board, hormones are a HUGE contributing factor. Then again, it wouldn't be easy to put a thought like this out of your mind. Noone likes to be accused of something they have no intentions of doing. Some women can be catty & cruel. I am glad you recognized this is all about her. She's the one with insecurities & sees you as a threat. I hope there's no room for this woman to travel with you. That would be more stress than you need on a daily basis. Is there anything that can be done to assure she won't be going? Otherwise, if it was me, this thought would keep creeping in):


BTW, I hope you don't mean drinking alcohol??? That is never a good way to cope with anxiety. It increases the anxiety & leads to depression. Besides it's unhealthy. I think you're a savvy lady & KNOW that. Please take care of yourself. Don't allow this woman to get under your skin so much that you place yourself @ risk, Amy! Hoping you're feeling better. Can you get a nap when you lay the baby down? Good luck! jan

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Registered: 12-27-2006
Thu, 01-25-2007 - 12:06pm

I've talked to our mutual friend about his wife, in a round about way. She drives him nuts too, so he is happy to get away on our trips. She doesn't have anything to do with our buisness, but is just a bystander, so there is no real reason for her to come anyway. I've pretty much said that there is simply no room for her to go and there's no reason to bring an extra car which would be more costly for everyone, as we all chip in on the gas and such. Her husband is kind of on our side with this, so that helps, LOL. She is just one of those people who suck the light out of a room, LOL.

Yes I meant alcohol, but not to deal with my anxiety, but to help me fall asleep. It was too early in the morning for me to take a sleep aid or Benedryl, because then I couldn't care for the baby, so I had a little bit of alcohol to help calm me and help me feel sleepy. I don't drink to solve my problems, but in this case I had tried everything else. And that only helped for a little bit, I still haven't been to sleep. ARGH!! And when the baby went down for a nap I was cleaning, LOL.