my life

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Registered: 07-08-2005
my life
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Thu, 01-25-2007 - 7:59am
Hi- I have posted to this board before and frequently read the posts but it seems like i only post when things are very panicy and my thoughts are out of control.
It seems like at 41 I am not living the life i want to. I feel like a failure. I have retreated into myself and no longer have friends outside of my family.
i do not work and have become afraid to go out in public where i have to speak to people. It is wearing me down. I am on paxil, ativan when necessary and ambien for sleeping.
I guess i could use some support. thanks
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Registered: 12-27-2006
In reply to: grippy2005
Thu, 01-25-2007 - 8:11am

Boy, life really can wear us down. When we look at the past and see where we've been and wish things could be different. Something I read in a wonderful Dale Carnegie book is that we can't live in our past, we can't live our future, we can only live one second at a time. Every day is small steps toward our future. The only true failure in life is not trying at all. When I start feeling like my life is going nowhere, I sit down, write about my life and then start making plans for the next month, just to get me out of the rut. Like for instance, I feel trapped in my life, I stay at home with my kids, our money situation is really tight and there's nothing I can do about it, I've tried at home buisnesses, but that got messed up, and some of them I can't do because I'd have to be on call and with kids it's hard to do that. So feeling stuck, I sat down and brainstormed on some new things and came up with a plan, there's still some bugs I need to work out, but it's in the processes, LOL.
But it helped me have something to look forward to.
It sounds like you are getting some help with your depression, but maybe it's time to talk to your doctor again about all the stuff that's happening in your life. I wish there is something I could say or do to help you more. Ultimately it is up to us to take the small steps out of the darkness, yet again and into a new light. Take them slow and at your own pace, no one is rushing you, but you will be glad you did :)

Many blessings!

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Registered: 03-11-2004
In reply to: grippy2005
Thu, 01-25-2007 - 10:13am

WB:) It's always good to know that our community is remembered when you need support. I think your name is Elaine. If I'm wrong, please correct me. I may be having a *senior moment*;)


Has something happened that has caused this setback? Perhaps extra stress or a life change that has you off center? Have you been sleeping enough, getting plenty of exercise & eating a balanced diet? These small changes are essential

 

 


 



iVillage Member
Registered: 05-27-2003
In reply to: grippy2005
Thu, 01-25-2007 - 3:09pm

hi there,


i can relate to the panicy...and to isolating...


i do this too when i am feeling anxious...


i have no great words of advice, just wanted to say hi and offer my support...


and let you know that you are not alone....


iVillage Member
Registered: 11-25-2005
In reply to: grippy2005
Thu, 01-25-2007 - 5:37pm
Hi I know how you feel sometimes that comes over me too!!
However we all have different expectations for ourselves---
PUSH PUSH PUSH that is what I have to do!! KEEP TRYING!!!
Medication is not enuogh you got to move it girl!! GOOD LUCK and
I KNOW IT IS HARD AND ANNOYING Judy
iVillage Member
Registered: 03-22-2003
In reply to: grippy2005
Thu, 01-25-2007 - 10:32pm

Hi Elaine!

Sheri Ann

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Registered: 10-21-2006
In reply to: grippy2005
Sat, 01-27-2007 - 6:04am

I can sympathize. I'm 21, but distressed because my life isn't where I want it to be. Things sorta slipped out of my control and I find that increasingly aggravating as the days go on. Still trying to decide what to do.

Also I don't see my old friends anymore. I have a 1 year old son and all my old friends are potheads, and I never see them anymore. It's a lonely life but I have a great family. I try to remember that.