I'm so scared

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Registered: 01-01-2007
I'm so scared
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Fri, 01-26-2007 - 12:57am

As I write this I beg for help but I don't know how anyone can help. I haven't posted in a while as I have been so busy with uni work and trying to get a doctors appointment. I have now been to the Doctor's and they have prescribed me Dosulepin to be taken at night time. I have not taken them yet as I have been having to stay up to meet deadlines for uni work. I am frightened about taking them due to my fear of dying that they could harm me and I won't wake up. I have had an awful night, it makes it all so much worse as I thought I was getting better but now I'm unsure if I have ever been this bad. I have tried going to bed about 3 times tonight but I have started to convince nyself that if I sleep I will die that I am letting go of life. I try so hard to stop myself from thinking these things but I am actually starting to believe them. I'm scared I will die or I'm starting to hear voices and am going insane. I am having a fight with voices in my head and fighting for my life. I am so dizzy and I feel empty inside like I am about to die from being so weak. I have no idea what to to, I am in a desperate situation. I can't wake up my boyfriend he looks so peaceful sleeping. I'm sorry to be such a pain.

All my love x

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Fri, 01-26-2007 - 9:34am
You are certainly not a pain. Don't ever think that. I also have dealt with anxiety and panic we are human beings with emotions we can not always control on our own.The world can be very scary and hurtful at times. Please you must try to get some rest. Maybe your boyfriend will watch a movie while you rest your head on his lap. Your never alone.
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Registered: 03-11-2004
Fri, 01-26-2007 - 12:30pm

(((X))) I am very sorry to hear this. I know all too well that everything you're feeling is a part of anxiety. A very uncomfortable part & probably the hardest thing to overcome. It IS possible! You CAN do this!


First, you must trust the doctor who ordered the med & also, the manufacturer of the med. It would not be prescribed to you if it was dangerous. You will feel much better in a few weeks, if you can get that pill down as directed. Take it when you are able to be with someone. Perhaps take it earlier so you don't associate it with sleep which is a trigger for you. I was so afraid to take a new pill in the past, that I took my first dose in the doctor's waiting room. Think positively! Don't allow yourself the time to dwell on these fearful thoughts. When you post again, please make sure you have spelled this med correctly. That way, others can reply & tell you that they took the same pill & did just fine.


As for the sleeping issues, you have been distressed about this before. Please develop a routine @ bedtime. That is very helpful. Reduce the stress in your life. Noone goes crazy from anxiety/panic, but this is a common fear. Again, think positively & reassure yourself each time the thought enters your mind.


It is always an option to call the dr. & ask if an inpatient stay is right for you. That will give you a rest from your situation. Give you a chance to begin the medication in a controlled & safe environment. Also, you would be offered therapy daily. Are you seeing a therapist? That would be very helpful. I hope you feel better soon. We care & want you to regain your wellness. good luck! jan

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Sat, 01-27-2007 - 1:30pm
Thank you I am trying so hard and at the moment I am finding that just smiling all the time is helping a lot, I may look a bit odd but hey if it makes me feel a bit better then it's worth it! The medication is spelt Dosulepin and I am going to take my first pill on Wednesday because by then my uni work will be handed in on time as I am worried that if I take a pill it may make me sleepy and I won't be able to work to meet my dealines. I have a doctors appointment for Feb to see how I'm going and I may ask for a therapist then. Your message really helped. I hope that you are well x
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Sat, 01-27-2007 - 1:33pm
Thank you Amy that was really nice of you I think that would certainly help matters. I just need to do things that take my mind off it when I have an attack. I know I'm being irrational but I can't help it :( At least it's not all the time and I know that people like you are here to help. Thank you again :)
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Sat, 01-27-2007 - 4:15pm

I hope you are feeling better today.

Sheri Ann

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Sat, 01-27-2007 - 6:58pm
Thank you that is so nice to know. I feel much better at the moment as I am keeping busy, unfortuanatly I can't rest as I have so much uni work to do :( It will albe handed in by Wednesday so I should feel much better then. Take care :)
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Registered: 03-11-2004
Sat, 01-27-2007 - 7:48pm
Just for clarification purposes, this med is available in the UK. I was unable to find it in the PDR. It is considered a *tricyclic* antidepressant. They're good meds for anxiety/depression. Good luck! I hope it goes ok for you on Wed:) (((hugs))) jan

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Registered: 07-28-2004
Sun, 01-28-2007 - 11:51am

I hope you are feeling a bit better. Sleep issues combined with anxiety at night are the worst! Sleep deprivation makes me feel crazy too. You've gotten some good advice from other responders. Please come post anytime and let us know how you are doing.

Hugs,
Dee

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Registered: 01-27-2007
Sun, 01-28-2007 - 2:35pm

Hello there,
I too know how you feel. I have suffered with anxiety and depression my whole life.
I started to have panic attacks at a young age, but did not know what they were at the time. As an adult, I get them when under a great deal of stress. My mother dealt with her anxiety abusing alcohol. Too bad they didn't have Prozac then. I've been on Prozac and also therapy over the years. They both have helped immensly. Hang in there, take everyone's advice here. Meds are a good way to go along with therapy. The feelings of loneliness and fear are awful I know. You feel out of control. Let us know how you are doing.

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Registered: 03-22-2003
Sun, 01-28-2007 - 8:24pm

I just wanted to pop in & say welcome and thanks for posting!


Sheri Ann

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